Friday, August 15, 2014

Surrounded by Chaos

Having boys means that I am constantly surrounded my chaos.

These 2 never stop moving, jumping, yelling, playing, fighting, laughing, eating, and generally making a mess.  Sometimes I feel like whenever I have to take them both to the store or to a restaurant that everyone is looking at us.  The energy level is just so freakin' high.  I crave quiet.  When they finally fall asleep at night it's like a huge accomplishment.

They are completely oblivious to how others around them view their behavior in public.  Half the time they are playing some game that only the 2 of them understand.  I dread having to run errands with them and find myself going out of my way to get things done while I am alone.  Getting them to go in the first place without a million complaints and me pleading for them to get there shoes on...

Get you shoes on...
Get your shoes on now...
Get your shoes on now PLEASE!!!!

Get in the car...
Get in the car...
Get in the car on your side!
Don't lock your brother out!

Get out of the car...
Get our of the car please...
Stop playing, get out of the car NOW!

I love my boys but it's truly exhausting to be raising 2 non-stop boys.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Back-to-School Countdown

I'm ready for the boys to return to school.  I love summer and everything that comes along with my favorite season but I crave predictability.  They crave it too, they just don't know it.  I need them to return to being on a schedule.  Also, less brain frying with video games too.  As a working parent it's also just easier and more affordable when they are in school for 8 hours a day.  The juggling of who's got my kids and when and where is exhausting, especially when the husband is traveling, which is about 40% of the time.

Puck is going into 4th grade.  I can hardly believe it.  I get glimpses of what he will be like as a teenager...
Puck: 9 Years Old

Muffin is going into 2nd grade.  We are still dealing with his eye issues but the treatment is working.   He has such a good heart...
Muffin: 7 Years Old

We are halfway through our 2 week vacation in our favorite little beach place.  Still hoping that Virginia Beach is someday my home but we've opened up Richmond as an option.  Leaving DC is our top priority.  It's been a great place to grow up but it's so competitive and fast paced.  The traffic is slowly killing me.  I hate it.  I think we could all use a slower pace of life and change is good for the soul.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

A Week to Myself

Hubs took the boys to Kansas this week for a visit with their grandmother.  So, since Tuesday morning I've been on my own.  I love my kids but I have to say it's been absolutely glorious to have a break.  I got a pedicure, a haircut, went shopping for an Easter dress, slowly browsed the wine shop.  It's so quiet..


Being a mom and a wife is not for the weak at heart.  I know I'll be rested and refreshed by the time they get home tomorrow afternoon.  It did make me realize that I don't spend enough time on myself, meaning I don't take care of myself and I certainly haven't made my physical and mental health a priority.  I'm going to start back with Yoga on Monday and I'm really excited.

Tonight it's a new bottle of wine, a hot bath, and some calming music.  Recharging...

Saturday, April 12, 2014

From City to Shore

For at least 9 years I have dreamed about moving to the beach.  When I am near the shore I am calmer, I sleep better, I am at peace.

Well a couple of months ago we made the decision to do just that, move to the shore.  I've packed boxes, listed our home for rent, obsessed over schools, and got quotes from movers.  And now that I am standing on the edge of a dream realized, I find it paralyzing.  I'm agonizing over my it right or is it wrong?  What if I make the wrong choice and everyone is miserable?

Change is hard, even when you really want the change.

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Having Older Kids

I find it difficult to blog about my kids these days.  They are older now, 7 and 9.  They are growing up and not everything is appropriate for a blog.  They deserve privacy now.  I still want to blog.  There are still so many fun and wonderful things to share but I see this blog moving in a new direction.  

I'm quickly approaching 40.  Approaching middle age?  Or climbing over the top of that "hill".  My perspective on parenting has changed a lot.

I know that my kids need my time and attention more now than ever before.  They have begun dealing with their own emotional issues.  Life is more serious and directional. It's no longer about first steps, first foods, etc.

I always thought the important years were the baby/toddler years but truthfully, life with kids gets more complex as they age.  I'm am enjoying how independent they are but I am reminded everyday that they need guidance, support, tough love, and hugs.  I hug my boys everyday.  I want them to know when their heads hit their pillows each night that they are loved and protected:)

I would love to find more bloggers of school age children....

Saturday, January 4, 2014

I Hate Winter

I can't stand the cold.  I've lived in the Washington, DC area my entire life so I can honestly say, I'm over it!  At least when it snows there is something pretty to look at and the kids get excited but I don't particularly enjoy the act of stuffing the boys into their snow suits, boots, hats, gloves, and all that!

They are really cute thought,  have to admit!

Here's what I saw when I peeked out the window on Muffin:)
We've known for a while that we are ready for a change and I can barely contain my excitement waiting for it all to be official:)))  Here is what's important to me:

Less time sitting in traffic, more time with my boys.

That's it.  I want to be the best mom I can be and when I'm tired all the time I am not.  As a working mom I always thought it would get easier as they got older.  I was wrong, it only gets more complicated.  They need and want me around more then ever.  They want me to volunteer at school and help with homework and make breakfast before school.  

I want time with them that is not all that's left over of me at the end of the day, because there isn't enough coffee or red bull to give me the energy I need to be the best mom.

I'll keep you posted on our adventure.  Maybe such a big change will give me something to write about again.  

Happy New Year!  Bring it 2014, I'm ready!