Thursday, March 31, 2011

The Public Bathroom Dilemma

Lately, when out with Puck in public places an interesting issue has cropped up now that  he is 6, going on 7.  Up until now, I've never given much thought to taking him with me into the ladies room to use the facilities or to wait for me.  However, he's not a toddler anymore and people are starting to notice...

At swim lessons on Sundays he likes to take a shower in the locker room after class so he can use the shampoo I bought him in the tiny travel bottle.  Well, now I realize there are little girls everywhere...sans clothing.... This is a problem.  I can see both sides of the issue.  If I had a daughter I wouldn't want little boys running around the locker room staring at her while she changes out of her bathing suit and I don't want him to see them or be seen either.  Last week we bolted from the locker room with a towel over his eyes when I saw a nude 7 or 8 year old girl walking around.  Hello, Does anyone remember what modesty is?

Anyway, I realize it was the Ladies locker room and ladies are therefore given to walking around in the nude if they so choose.  What is a mom of a boy supposed to do?  There is a sign on the door that says, "No boys over the age of 4 allowed in the Ladies Room".  I can't send him into the Mens locker room alone!  Who only knows what sort of pervs are lurking there!?!  There are 2 "Family Rooms" available but when 50 people are finishing swim lessons at the same time you can see how this is not an option.  Even though the intent of these rooms is to be family friendly and co-ed people can lock the door so it's just them in there, so thanks for nothing.  I refuse to stand there with my freezing cold little boy for 30 minutes to wait our turn for the "Family Room" when there are 15 perfectly good showers available in the LADIES locker room.

Now I've noticed it with women's rooms everywhere.  Even at the movies last night a lady seemed to notice I had brought him in with me.  He's only in Kindergarten people, I can't leave him standing out in the lobby alone!  Sigh...

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Getting Back to Normal

Thank you so much for all of your sweet comments and support for Muffin.  He is doing great!  Those antibiotics are miraculous:)  Just to prove it to you here is what he was up to today...
Eating a favorite snack:  Hexagon shaped waffle with cream cheese!

His high energy personality was back in action in typical Muffin style.  Here he is in one of his favorite positions: upside down on the couch!
My Little Sensory Seeker is back!

Not to be forgotten about is Puck, the big brother.  This kid has layers of personality and depth I am just beginning to break the surface on.  I don't know where my toddler went but this little man is one of the coolest I have ever met.  Tomorrow we are going on a date-night to see Diary of a Wimpy Kid 2, just us:)  Can't wait!
When I look in his eyes I see so much soul...

Future Heartbreaker

Monday, March 28, 2011

105 Degree Fever = A Trip to the ER

Arriving at the ER
Day 8 and Muffin still has a fever.  He started to wilt again yesterday when out to lunch at Mickey D's with Puck and Grammie.  By 7:30 he was asleep on the couch and when I rechecked his fever the thermometer read 105.3.  I think I didn't really believe it.  Earlier in the day he had already reached 104.3 and a luke warm bath brought it back down to a more comfortable level along with the fever reducing medication.  I grabbed him up and out the door I went to the ER.  Hubs stayed behind with Puck.

Getting IV Antibiotics
He was seen right away and given Tylenol.  I was so glad when the doctor finally came in to check him.  By now the fever was down to a cool 103!  Everyone kept remarking on how HOT he felt.  The doctor said he had a raging bi-lateral ear infection and also ordered a chest X-Ray.  The worst part was having the IV put in.  I've never heard him vocalize so clearly as he protested to the nurses,  "You're hurting me!"  He was such a little trooper.  I'm still amazed he stood still for the X-Rays...took a little coxing on my part.  They immediately started him on IV antibiotics.  I was so thankful for the clicking of that little machine that was pumping in the medicine.  After 2 previous trips to the doctors office this week it was about time!
His sweet little hand. 

The chest X-Ray revealed Pneumonia as well.  All this stuff his little body is fighting and he's still go-go-go...

I really hope the 2 antibiotics he's on now nip these infections quickly.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Hipstamatic Pix

This little iPhone app is growing on makes even the most mundane look interesting.  In case you don't know what a Hipstamatic is, it's a throwback camera app that mimics the look and feel of the old plastic cameras of the past. 

Here's what I did while I was bored today...

Coffee...oh how I love thee...

My much need of a pedicure.

Me...looking my age;)

My Wedding Rings

Muffin after the Motrin kicked in playing his DS.

Pizza Planet Alien

Finding Nemo

Me again...yep, bored.

Puck playing Power Rangers Samurai on my laptop.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Friday Night Leftovers - Bits & Pieces Edition

What a day....Here are my leftovers in pix...

*Hubs was T-Boned this morning in our minivan.  Luckily no one was hurt.  Whenever I look at this picture all I can think about it that this is where Puck rides in the car...
See the side-curtain airbags deployed?  Chills...

*Puck lost his 3rd tooth today while at school.  It was the 1st tooth on the top row:)  He was really excited about coming home with his tooth in the little tooth box from the nurse!  Again, they grow so fast.

*As I mentioned earlier this week.  I HATE how I look right now.  I'm trying to accept it and love me for me.  I'm still the same person on the inside...
This photo was taken of me at work.  I am a preschool photographer so this is how I look everyday.  Sitting on my case, strobes/umbrellas behind me, coffee to my right.  Wearing my oh-so-stylish company polo shirt.  Sexy, right?

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Thursday, March 24, 2011

Things I Did Right Today

  • I put on eyeliner before I even left the house.
  • I wore my hair down and it looked as if I had even looked in the mirror before I left the house.
  • I folded 3 loads of laundry AND put them away.
  • I ate:  salad for lunch and a roast beef sandwich on wheat for dinner and a protein shake for snack, nothing else.
  • I showered.
  • I remembered that Puck's homework is due tomorrow.
I forgot how shooting everyday makes me so tired.  In case you didn't know, for the last 11 years I have been a preschool photographer.  I wipe noses, comb hair, and photograph the 1-6 year old crowd on a daily basis.  I also pretty much act like a crazy lady the whole time to get smiles out all those tiny people.  By noon, I'm exhausted and longing for a nice quiet desk job.  So, this is why my list up there is so important to me.   Sometimes it's all about keeping up with the little stuff.  Slow and steady wins the race, right?

Wednesday, March 23, 2011


Besides a mom, wife, daughter and co-worker, I'm just me. 

I feel like I am the same person inside that I was at 17.  Looking in the mirror brings me back to reality.  Crows feet, gray hair, C-Section scars and too many extra pounds to count...I'm me but...weathered. 

I don't like myself right now.  I actually hate the way I look.  I hate the way my clothes fit, I avoid my reflection whenever I can.

It's been a slow climb up the ladder of self loathing to my current weight/appearance.  I haven't had a hair cut in almost 2 years and I've just recently forced myself to put eyeliner on before I leave the house in the morning.

I ventured out of my comfort zone tonight and went to my first spinning class.  All I can say about it is that I made it through.  I was afraid I'd have to hobble out mid-way, but I hung in until the end.  You would think the seats would have more cushioning... Luckily, the mirror was behind me so I didn't have to see myself at all and as a bonus they turn out the lights so no one else can see you either. 

I have to somehow figure out how to like myself again....

Tuesday, March 22, 2011


In this world where Facebook, Twitter, Foursquare, and countless other outlets for social media come to the forefront of communication, no one is anonymous.

It began innocently enough, Facebook.  Seemed like a cool idea.  I had already tried MySpace but didn't really "get" it.  Facebook seemed more suited to my HTML knowledge required and instantly find every last friend and foe from high school, college, and the office.

I've embraced all of these social media outlets, tweeting, facebooking and even checking in on Foursquare (something that a few months ago I regarded as a huge invasion of privacy - but here I am telling everyone that I'm at Yoga or the grocery store.)  Is it just me or does that sound really dangerous?  "Yes creepy people I am here at Target, come and get me!"  I've posted 100's of photos on FB that 99% of my "friends" could probably care less about and I tweet regularly with people I've never met. 

Which brings me to blogging.  I blog to share, yes.  I blog to vent, yes.  Who are all these people reading my words?  Are their intentions good?  Are there people that know me in real life who are reading without letting me know?  Why do so many people read and not comment or let me know they are "here"?  It's beginning to creep me out a bit.

The longer I blog, facebook, and tweet, the more uneasy I become about it.  I have become acutely aware of my private I mean unwittingly public identity. Have you Googled yourself lately?  Don't get me started.  If I could be on the "No-Google List" (you know, like the Do Not Call List) I would sign up in a minute.

I began blogging as a way to write my personal hopes, fears, dreams, misery, and joy.  A sort of therapy journal.  I no longer feel as though I can use this blog as a personal space for self expression.  I love sharing photos and talking about my experiences as a mom, but this is not enough for my journey through life, love, and the pursuit of happiness.   When I'm sad I need to write about it, when I'm happy I need to write about it.  In either case I need a PRIVATE place to take care of me.  

Monday, March 21, 2011

104 Degree Fever

Muffin had a fever of 104.3.  It started earlier yesterday with a fever hovering around 100.  I only noticed because I hugged him and felt how hot he was.  He was acting completely normal so I didn't worry too much about it. He always acts normal.  It takes a lot to bring this kid down.  He doesn't even complain when he has an ear infection.

By 10:00 pm the fever has reached 104.3 and I was pretty close to taking him to the ER.  If the Motrin ddidn't bring the fever down a little bit, I would really have started to panic.  The Motrin did it's thing  bringing his hot little body back down to a comfortable 100.3.  The on-call doctor put my mind at ease, at least for the time being.  I let him sleep.

Sitting by his bed watching him shiver, trying to help bring the fever under control with cold cloths on his forehead I was counting my blessings at how healthy he really is.  I can't even remember the last time he had a high fever, it's been years.

This is the worst part about being a mom...when your babies are sick.

The fever came back after 4 hours and I didn't have any tylenol to give him.  I was so happy when 4:00 am finally arrived so I could give him another dose of Motrin.

This mornings thunder storm sent Puck into a panic so he ended up in my bed.  I'm exhausted.  Muffin came bouncing in at 7:30 am, fever free, acting as if nothing had happened.  He's got 2 more hours before the Motrin wears off.  We'll be seeing the Ped this afternoon.

I'm ready for a nap.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Friday Night Leftovers: Let's Go Edition!

I think I am happiest when I am busiest.  Being busy forces you to concentrate on the things that count the most.  That being said there is a very fine line between busy and overwhelmed.  There is a lot coming in my direction so I'm not sure which it will turn out to be.

Here we go...

  • Baseball started yesterday for the boys.  Hubs and I coach Muffins team.  Well, he coaches the team and I coach Muffin...  Both boys have practice at the same time today, thankfully just a field apart so we can coach and watch Puck at his practice from across the way.
  • Spring is here, which means the photography business picks up...bye bye Sundays.
  • I've somehow ended up on the ballot for next years PTO President.  I'm really excited about it but also slightly anxious about the time commitment involved.  One of my favorite things in the world is to be a leader and help people accomplish their goals.  I used to manage pools back in the day when I still looked good in a bathing suit.  I was also captain of my high school colorguard in the the Marching Band.  Yes, I admit I was a band geek....great memories.  I always seem to end up in these kinds of roles so I guess there is a reason for that.
  • We are dog sitting for a week!  My favorite Pug:)  Right now I have a Pug snuggled up on my left and a Labradoodle snuggled up on my right.  So right now that makes Hubs (a boy), Muffin & Puck (both boys) and the dogs (also boys)...I am completely out numbered here.
  • Weightloss is not happening.  I'm very disappointed in myself.  I'm working up the courage to go to a Spinning class.  I'm afraid I'll have to hobble out before the class is over...
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    Wednesday, March 16, 2011


    Did you know that blowing bubbles also helps blow off some steam?  Maybe I should join in the fun next time.
    I love this first set of photos of Muffin in red.  He had just taken a shower so his hair was still wet.  He had the time of his life...ran the batteries out on his little automatic bubble blower!  I also love these photos because they are all SOOC.  No editing whatsoever here, NONE!  It just goes to show you that if you get it right the first time, not every photo needs Photoshop to be better.  

    Puck was at school so he missed all the fun.  The bubbles came out again the very next afternoon.  Coincidentally, so did the pack of AA batteries.  These boys don't get seem to get tired of this activity.  I had to literally cut them off.  No More!  Save some for tomorrow:)

    Now it's my turn to have fun, maybe I'll take a hot bath, and perhaps sip a night cap.  Bourbon & Coke anyone?

    Monday, March 14, 2011


    1/400 f/2.5 taken with my Canon 85mm f/1.8 USM

    Sample of Spring

    It's coming!  It's coming! The April Showers, the May Flowers and I can't wait!  Yesterday the boys were outside almost the entire day.  They NEVER get tired of the running, bike riding, and endless games of Hide and Go Seek.
    My Big Boys:  Puck (6) Muffin (4)
    Being Creative
    Muffin LOVES his new ride!

    Saturday, March 12, 2011

    Saturday To-Do's

    My day started great; I got to sleep until 9:00am and Hubs made me a Egg White Omelet with Cheese:)  It was very tasty but I must admit I missed the yolks a little.

    Here's my plan for the day:

    • finish coffee
    • get dressed
    • head to toy store to buy Muffin a shiny new bike (I'm more excited than he is.)
    • finish eradicating my house of all unnecessary paper.  Paper is evil.
    • TAXES.  I have to get to this ASAP or Hubs might lose his mind.
    • catch up on laundry, I made a decent size dent this week
    • vacuum the stairs...ewwww
    • take some new photos of my boys.
    • come to grips with Pucks new OBSESSION over the new Power Rangers Samurai.  It's so cheesy.  This mornings episode was about a villain that poisons all the rangers with his "Halitosis".  Yes, bad breath!!!  He LOVE it!

    Have a great weekend:)

    Tuesday, March 8, 2011

    Heartfelt Words For My Boys

    Clarity is what I've had over the last few days.  I feel like I can see everything that is happening all at once and yet, it's not confusing or chaotic. 

    My boys have both been at their best, well except for the hour we spent waiting at the vets office yesterday...

    Muffin is exploding in personality and Puck is turning into the sweetest little man. 

    Tonight while I was tucking in Muffin at bedtime I said, "I love you."  He replied, "I love you too."  It made me so happy.  He also drew his first stick figure today on the chalk board.  When I asked him what is was he said, "It's Muffin!"  Except he used his real name.;)  When I pointed to the eyes and asked him what that was he said "Eyes".  It sounds so simple but it made me so happy.

    Puck is becoming this little independent man that never ceases to amaze me.  He is also the most handsome 6 year old I have ever seen:)  The last 2 mornings he has come into my room just before the alarm goes off and asks to snuggle with me, just like when he was really little. 

    Life is full of ups and downs and right now I'm enjoying these up days with my kids...

    My mom is back in my life and I'm so happy about it.  We picked up Muffin from Preschool and had lunch at our favorite fast food place with the indoor playroom.  He was delighted and not shy...called her Grammie and asked her to come home and play some more.  Puck missed out since he is in Kindergarten all day.  He was very angry when he found out he missed out on Grammie so we will be planning another outing as soon as possible.


    Thursday, March 3, 2011

    Marvelous Muffin

    Muffin had a great day.  It was therapy day!  I wish I could be the one that could take him but I'm so fortunate that I have an amazing mother-in-law that is as committed to helping Muffin as I am.  It was his first day in therapy (Speech and OT) with his new weighted vest.  They said they could really see a difference already:)

    I was really bummed out last night after he went to bed.  We had been reading "Monkeys Jumping On the Bed".  Every page is basically the fell off and bumped his head.  Every other page shows a monkey crying.  Every page I would ask Muffin, "Why is the monkey crying?"  Even after the 5th page he still couldn't tell me WHY the monkey was crying.  He would just say, "I don't know."  He is 4 years old and should be able to figure out from the story why this monkey is crying...

    I tucked him in and left the room feeling like he was getting worse.  I felt so sad.  After discussing the problem of "Why" questions with the therapists today we now have a plan of action.  For the time being we will not be asking Muffin any "Why" or other Wh questions.  Instead of saying, "What did you do at school today?" We are supposed to say, "I bet you had a great day at school today!  I bet you went to the playground!"  The hope is that he will correct me if I guess wrong, "No, I went to music." (for example)
    I tried some of the new techniques while Muffin and I were watching Wall-e tonight and he talked to me more than ever before.

    It was really a special moment for me.  Now I am feeling hope once again that this kid can turn it around...

    Wednesday, March 2, 2011

    Calming Weight {Weighted Vest} - SPD

    I recently went online in search of a weighted vest for Muffin.  His OT has been trying to get him to wear one during his sessions but he always refuses to wear it.  Most of the ones I found online were either super institutional looking and/or extremely expensive.

    I ended up at Etsy because that's where I always end up when I'm looking for something really unique.  I found Calming Weight.  You can visit her full website at  She handcrafts all kinds of weighted items for children with Sensory Processing Disorder and/or Autism Spectrum Disorders and more.  I sent her a message and said, "I know this is a long shot but do you have Wall-e fabric?"  She sent me a message back almost immediately that she did indeed have Wall-e and sent we a photo of the fabric!  There are tons of fabrics, by the way.  If she has Wall-e, she must have almost everything.  I was so excited and place an order right away.  I thought the price was very fair at just under $60.00!

    I showed it to Muffin for the first time tonight.  His eyes lit up when he saw it.  I knew I had found a winner.  He wanted to sleep in it.  {Which of course is not allowed} but I assured him he could wear it again tomorrow.

    The vest is made with great skill, truly a beautiful and well made product.  There are plenty of removable weights and they slip discreetly inside secret pockets where Muffin can't get to them.  It is our plan for Muffin to wear his vest during Therapy and at times during the school day that the OT deems appropriate.

    Please consult your child's therapist before using a weighted vest.  I will be asking the OT tomorrow when he should wear his vest, how much weight is appropriate and for how long he can wear it.

    If you have been looking for a special product like this please consider Calming Weight.  You should also know that I was not paid or compensated for this review.  I purchased a vest because it was exactly what I was looking for and I'm sharing it with all of you because I love it and know there are lots of little ones out there like Muffin that could benefit.

    Tuesday, March 1, 2011

    Post It Note Tuesday

    I thought I would mix it up today.  I've posted some stickies for your enjoyment...

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