Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Tuesday's Around the World

I am grateful for my son's continued developmental progress.  His smile and sweet personality make me so happy.  Being able to communicate with him more everyday is so special:)
Can you guess who his favorite character is?

Monday, November 29, 2010

Muffin's Cognitive Improvements

If you have been following Muffin's history then you would know that he can communicate "who" and "what" but does not communicate "why".  In other words, conversation with him is very basic.  He doesn't ask why...I just try to meet his needs.

There were 2 really exciting moments for me over the long Thanksgiving weekend for me with regards to communication with my son.  Just  to bring you up to speed he has been diagnosed as having a developmental delay, oral aversion, and Sensory Processing Disorder.  He is almost 4 but most days I feel like I still have a 2 year old.

Exciting Moment #1:  I had just gotten out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my head as most woman probably do everyday.  He asked me why I was wearing a hat on my head.  I said, "No, it's a towel" and he said, "Oh, why are you wearing a towel on your head?"

You may not realize why this simple question just floored me so let me explain.  Muffin never asks "why" questions, nor is he able to answer "why" questions.  I was smiling as I was explaining that the towel was helping to dry my hair because I never have to explain anything to him!!!

Exciting Moment #2:  This just happened tonight.  I was trying to move the laundry into the dryer and calling out to him to finish up with the tooth brushing and get in bed.  I kept saying between handful of wet clothing from washer to dryer, "Come on Muffin, let's go!"  To which he stopped and leaned around the door jam to make eye contact with me down the hallway to say, "I'm brushing my teeth, I'm almost finished!"  He was even a little exasperated with me for trying to rush him. 

All I can say is pride swelled up inside me and all I could do was smile and say, "OK honey!"  Way to go little man, mommy is so proud of you.  I hope that means all the speech and OT is starting to pay off.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Christmas Card Photo - Done!

Yesterday I believe we started a new tradition...Gingerbread Houses.  The boys favorite Aunt couldn't make Thanksgiving at the last minute but she sent along the Gingerbread House kits she had planned to make with them.

Yesterday morning I covered the table with a plastic cloth, set out all the supplies, and grabbed a camera to document the fun.  One tip:  I assembled the pieces the night before so the icing would be good and dry for decorating when the boys were ready to begin, trust me this is a must for little ones who will be chomping at the bit to decorate with all the yummy candy!

They were even more into it than I thought possible, even Muffin.  Yielding the icing and plastic knife like a pro!

Even more exciting for me, I captured this years Christmas Card Photo....
***Merry Christmas 2010***

The next thing I did was make a slide show of all the photos from the Gingerbread House decorating to send to our favorite Aunt who had to miss out on the fun.  It came out better than I thought and it was so simple.  I've never been a scrapbooker because I take too many photos and have trouble selecting the few that can fit on a page.  I order photo books occasionally but that gets expensive.  A slide show however, puts all the photos from your event together with music creating much more impact than just clicking through them on your computer!   You can burn them to DVD and or insert video clips in too!


Saturday, November 27, 2010

Friday Night Leftovers - Christmas Kickoff

  • I'm always so excited to be off work, until 6:00am when I remember my kids don't know the difference and could give a crap that I would like to sleep in.  I can't complain because Hubs let me sleep until 9:30 yesterday...that's like a miracle.  It's his turn to sleep in today!
  • I can't believe Thanksgiving is over and Christmas is just around the corner.  I still have hardly any idea what the boys want this year.  It's getting more difficult as they get older.  
  • Coughs and runny noses have arrived with the holiday, poor Puck can't stop coughing.  
  • I'm still so sore from running in the Turkey Trot.   Ouch!  
  • I'm hoping to stay in my PJ's all day, decorate some Gingerbread Houses, and maybe do a load or 2 of laundry, that's it!
  • Bad Photographer:  I still haven't taken my boys photo for our Christmas card, I better get on that ASAP!
Hungry?  Go check out the other Leftovers with Danifred at Sippy Cups are not for Star.bucks!

Friday, November 26, 2010

Thankful Thanksgiving

I'm so thankful for my family.  We enjoyed another wonderful day with my father and step mom.  Good food and fun.  The boys were pretty well behaved too, although after being up since 6 am to watch mommy run in her first 5K, by 8:00 they were done.

Photos to remember the day...

My 1st 5K and personal best time of 38:14!!!
Cold early morning drive to the 5K Turkey Trot

1/2 awake

Bundled Up and waiting for mommy to run by...

Couldn't not take the dog.

Here comes mommy!
 Our Thanksgiving

Cooking the Turkey!

Me and my Dad


Carving Time


The spread....

Muffin and Red Velvet Cake

Hubs and the boys

Me and Hubs

Me and my Dad again, love this one!

The always difficult photo of me and both boys together!

Gingerbread House Surprise

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

No Time for Selfish Cowards

It's been almost 2 years since I have spoken to my mother.
How does a mother not want to be near her child, even an adult one? Are we as humans really so prideful and selfish that we can't see past our own issues. She has 2 grandsons who can't even name her in a photo. "Who's that?" Puck said the last time I showed him her picture. When I told him that was his other grandmother he said, "Did she die?"

There was a falling out after my wedding almost 10 years ago and nothing was ever the same. I'm sorry but I cant tell the story now, I've repeated it so many times and can't bare to do it again right now. Also involved is my younger and incredibly selfish sister. They seem to get along fine, go figure.

My sister was at Thanksgiving last year and managed to completely ignore her 2 nephews, one of which she had never met since he was born over 3 years ago at the time.

I think that is absolutely sick.

They would love her so much if she would just acknowledge them. I find myself even making excuses for my mom knowing what a difficult life she has had, but my sister had the same great upbringing by 2 loving parents as I did and she has no excuse except to be a bitch.

I've tried too many times and apologized time and time again for things I didn't even do just to appease these woman. I'm not doing it anymore.

What is wrong with people that they think just cutting someone off is acceptable for any reason, ever? Only selfish cowards do that.

How about what hurts my feelings? I count too dammit and besides I don't have time to deal with that level of bullshit, I'm busy raising 2 little human beings!!!

Thank you for reading my vent.

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Monday, November 22, 2010

Is this Stimming Behavior? Muffin Video

We were early getting to school this morning so Muffin and I had a few minutes to relax and chat in the car before going in.  I noticed he was flicking his lip, something I have never seen him do before.  I decided to start video taping thinking at some point it would be nice to have some of my concerns documented since when it's just me and him I know he is being himself. 

This is classic Muffin....


The worst part about being a parent is the lack of uninterrupted sleep.  This is something that you can't possibly relate to until you have experienced the unrelenting, constant, unforgiving schedule of babies, toddlers, and big kids.
I'll admit that now that the boys are 3 and 6 it's a lot better and doesn't compare to the infant days of past when Puck didn't sleep through the night until he was 10 months old, but to each his own right?

I hate that Muffin is up at 6AM on the dot everyday.  Now that he is night training he has to get up to pee and he doesn't go back to sleep.  To make it worse he wakes his brother up too who just happened to start sleeping in until 7:30 at least.  Sigh...
To make matters worse, these little guys certainly hit the ground running demanding cheerios, milk, or yogurt and their favorite TV shows, which rarely end up being the same hence arguing and compromising before my first cup of coffee is even brewed!

I love to complain, have you noticed?

Truth be told though I would gladly take this daily battle than my normal commute to work and everything and everybody I have to deal with all day long while away from my boys.

Some extra time together over the Thanksgiving holiday is just what I need.  I especially need to spend more time with Puck.   He is changing and growing so fast.  When he had a nightmare earlier in the week I let him lay in bed with me until he fell back to sleep.  When I tried to pick him up to carry him back to his own bed I couldn't lift him off the ground!  I basically had to half-drag the poor kid all the way down the hallway...
Puck is also testing all his "big kid" boundaries...not listening, talking back, making faces, and generally being selfish and hot tempered.  Thank goodness at the end of the day he still likes to cuddle.  I've got to make time for him before he doesn't want me around anymore!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Happy Muffin

Muffin and I had some nice alone time today while Hubs and Puck were at Baseball practice.  I decided to grab my camera and snap a few of this happy little man.  I couldn't get him to smile for me long enough to focus and shoot at the same time but I know he enjoyed it because when I put the camera away he asked me to take more pictures of him:)  I thought we needed some cheering up after yesterdays post.  Thanks for all your support!

As always I enjoyed playing with my 85mm 1.8 and it made me realize I need to get our Christmas Cards photos taken ASAP!  Maybe tomorrow I'm beat after shooting a family of 25 this morning!

Enjoy the photos...

Friday, November 19, 2010

Asperger's ?

Is this even a possibility for Muffin?  One of his teachers told us today that he is exhibiting stimming behaviors....

Autism?  Aspergers?

I don't know what to say...

Christmas is Coming...

...and although I'm less than thrilled about decking the halls and fighting crowded malls seeing the growing excitement in my sons gets me excited.  It's like being transported back in time when I was a girl.  I thought Christmas was the best day of the year, so much so I couldn't even sleep on Christmas Eve...

The List 2010
Last night I sat down with Puck as he wrote out his very first Christmas List.  We'll be mailing it to the North Pole today but I wanted to make sure I could always remember it...

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Bittersweet Evaluation #?...I've lost Count

When it comes to how I feel about Muffin, his issues and development, I honestly don't want there to be anything wrong with him.  I even posted about this a year ago...I was so excited that after a 2nd evaluation from ChildFind in 2009 it was deemed he didn't need qualify for services.  I was so glad to hear someone tell me that...I put all my concerns out of my mind for the next 6 months.

Fast forward almost a full year and the picture has changed.  He has seen a Developmental Pediatrician, a Speech Pathologist, and an Occupational Therapist.  They all agree Muffin has something going on that requires intervention.  ChildFind saw him again and this time agreed that he is not where he should be for an almost 4 year old.  On one hand I'm elated since this means he may get help through the county instead of the expensive private therapy we are paying for now. 

Now I have to wait for his case to get approval by the ChildFind Committee, then they will observe him in class, then a full evaluation..."with the holidays coming it all may take a couple of months."

Yes, that's the way it is.  My poor son has been evaluated by so many different people on the same skills...I think he is even tired of it.

So yes I am so happy to hear there may be help for Muffin but I'm so sad that he has extra challenges that he has to overcome.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Friday Night Leftovers

*I really want a Canon 60D.  I need it and I'm working towards being able to purchase one for my business.  It will be my largest investment yet. 

*Business is good.  I have had a shoot scheduled every weekend for the past 2 months and I still have a couple on the books!  If I didn't have to work my full-time job, I think I could really get moving!

*It's Friday and my wine has never tasted so good...yummy!

*Muffin gets re-evaluated by the County on Monday to see if he qualifies for services.  Fingers crossed...private therapy is getting expensive.

*Sorry for all the blog back and forth...I guess it's just a manifestation of my anxiety and unrest.  I'm sure all will settle down eventually:)

I love the Friday Night Leftovers.  Please visit the lovely and talented Danifred to play.  If she hasn't set it up then send her a comment and tell her to get it in gear, we need her!

Back to Blogger, again.

OK so clearly I can't seem to make up my mind.  I've been over to WordPress where I can never really get out of my blog what I want.  Maybe I'm just not smart enough.  Anyway, who knows.  I think the pros of Blogger out way the cons and I'm not willing to spend money just to enhance my personal blog.  I have gone to a simpler layout which I hope will help let the words and photos that are important to be be seen.

Sorry for all the mess, hang in there with me and I'll be done soon.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Auditory Processing Quirk

Muffin has a quirk.
He often repeats his questions.  For example if he asks, "Can I take the toy upstairs?"
I say, "Yes."
He says, "Can I take the toy upstairs?"
I say, "Yes."
and so on and so forth.

His preschool teacher has noticed, we have noticed.  The only way to get him to move on is to repeat his question back to him, "Yes, you may take the toy upstairs."
His occupational therapist said today it's an auditory processing issue.  He can't process my "Yes" answer and needs to hear me repeat it back to him.

I'm always amazed when I discover these little things about Muffin and all the facets of SPD.
And while I'm on the topic of quirks, can someone please tell me how to get this kid to walk, instead of RUN everywhere?  Please?

Also this week I had Muffin's parent/teacher conference.  Overall he is doing well but I was disheartened to hear that the teacher was surprised to learn he is one of the oldest students in the class but he appears to be one of the youngest.  I know that's true.  I know he is just a few months away from turning 4 and I still feel like I have a 2 year old.  He wears me out, but I still feel sad to hear someone else say it.  For the past 2 years I've been asking for help and everyone kept telling me that he is so smart and just needs better discipline.  Now, I'm finally hearing what I've known all along, and it sucks.
Making progress slowly...I'm exhausted.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Cute Costumes! TRICK-OR-TREAT!!!

Halloween was a blast this year.  Both Puck and Muffin were so into wearing their costumes and running door to door yelling, "Trick-Or-Treat!"  (Except Muffin who insisted on saying, "I want candy!"...

Here they are in all their Halloween splendor!  Darth Vader & Wall-e....

Linking up with the SITS Girls for day 3 of the Canon T2i DSLR Giveaway!  Click HERE to link up:)