Friday, August 20, 2010

Friday Night Leftovers

  • I don't know why I've convinced myself that this extra 30+ pounds is just going to disappear on it's own.  I guess because I'm too busy being a wife, mom, co-worker, friend, PTO Chair, and business owner.  After the boys are in bed I just want to sit and watch TV, read blogs, and stalk catch up with people on Facebook.
  • I did just join a Gym for probably the 3rd time in my life.  Third times a charm, right?
  • We are on a roll painting the house and just putting some love in to it to finally make is feel like a home after 6 years.  I'm super excited about a new dining room table {Yes, before another big screen TV that Hubs wants!!!}
  • I joined the PTO since Puck is heading into Kindergarten and Hubs is now Muffin's T-Ball coach.  I think we must be officially insane.
  • I'm so HAPPY it's Friday!  Is a hot bath and a book and maybe a load or two of laundry too much to ask for a nice quiet evening?  Multi-Tasking is key...
{Come play with us and the witty Danifred over at Sippy Cups are not for Starbucks !  It's so fun to clean out the fridge and toss all those leftover thoughts!}

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Not That Mom, a lesson...

Yesterday, I was waiting in line at the check out of my local Target store (why shop anywhere else, right).  Muffin and me had just finished a quick trip to pick up odds and ends.  Shopping is always challenging with him.  He always says, "No cart today."  Which is his way of telling me he wants to run away from me with a huge smile on his face walk like a big boy.  I usually resort to bribing him with a ring pop or Gold Fish to get him to sit in the cart (the main part, not the seat part because he would never agree to that). 

I consider myself to me a somewhat relaxed mom, not too strict, allowing my boys to test the boundaries.  However, if bad behavior creeps in over what I would consider to be normal boyish mischievousness, then heads will roll. 

As we were waiting in line there was another mother with her equally young perhaps 3 year old daughter behind us in line.  The little blond girl said sweetly to her mom, "Can I have a treat?" 

OK, yes, we have all heard this before from our kids.  Yes, it can be annoying.  Yes, they ask for things all the time...I'm aware.  Granted I had just seen them for the first time and have no idea what kind of adventured sprung up on their shopping trip...However...

This mom reacted so nastily.  Her voice was so harsh as she said, "The cup IS your treat and I'm going to put it back!"  You can imagine the rest...little girl would step away (only like 3 feet) and get reprimanded again with the loss of her little princess cup.  It wasn't what the mom said, it was how she said it.  She was angry and she was taking it out on her daughter. 

Muffin and I paid and rolled out into the parking lot.  He asked for one of the juice boxes we had just purchased and because this angry woman had affected me...I smiled and reached for a juice box because he asked so nicely.  As I was getting ready to back out of the spot I saw that mother again looking as angry as ever.  Her little daughter trailing behind her with this sad face.  I saw this mother pick her up and plop her daughter into the carseat.  She was being too rough I thought as she pulled on the straps and buckles of the carseat.  She was raising her voice and pointing her finger right in her daughters face and the little girl was crying.

I froze.  I froze because I'm pretty sure this exact scene has played out in my own life on another day on another shopping trip.  Watching this scene play out hit me like a truck.  I will NEVER lose my temper like that again with my boys no matter what they do.  I will try so hard not to let my own personal frustrations or stresses effect my job as a mom.  I don't ever want to be that mom...

Being a mom is hard work.  I don't ever want my boys to be treated like that little girl was, not even by me.  I want my children to trust me.  I want them to always feel safe and protected by me.  We are our children's whole world while they are young.  They look to us for whats right and wrong.  Never forget that.  Respect your kids, they deserve it.

Monday, August 16, 2010

My Kids Destroy Everything!

OK.  I don't know if it's just me or what but my kids have damaged just about everything in sight.  We moved into a brand new house just before my first son was born.  Which means that just under 6 years ago everything in my house was sparkling with new-ness.   Now...it looks like a war zone.

Wood Floor in kitchen/family room doesn't contain one square foot that hasn't been dented or scratched...it's like a putting green of sad little divits. 

Every square inch of sheetrock (wall) is bruised, stained, dented, chipped....

Puck actually pulled off a drawer front to one of my beautiful upgraded maple kitchen cabinets and I have recently noticed another is getting ready to fall off.

The inner pane of glass on one of the side windows to my bay window in the dining room....huge section of glass actually broke and fell out one morning when Puck was banging on it as I left for work...thank God he wasn't hurt.

My shower door is on it's last leg track.

My stainless steal fridge...dented...a lot:(

Carpet, stained.

Fireplace screen destroyed.

Today Muffin walked up to the car while we were getting in to run errands and hit a toy against the paint 3 times leaving behind dark blue paint on my shiny newish car...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

and the sad part...there's more...I just think I should stop there before I get depressed.  

Thursday, August 12, 2010

New Meme! Monthly Makeover!!!!! The Project #1

I have a great idea.  I'm presenting this new Monthly Meme, mostly because I can't keep up with the weekly ones but also because this one is a little more involved.  This one is all about your homes!  I am on a mission to take back my house and repair the damage created by my two little angels.  We have lived in this house for over 5 years and have hardly done anything to it.  Now that it's beginning to look like it's falling apart we are taking some action.  We are starting with the dining/room living room since it's the first thing you see when you come in the door.  The walls are seriously FILTHY!  That flat white builder paint isn't doing anything for the place either.

Here's how to join in the fun!  Grab the button and take some before pictures.  Now, this could be painting, redecorating, rearranging, or maybe you've organized your pantry, junk drawer, or bedroom closet.  Whatever your goal for the month is!!!  Post your before pix and link up to Mr. Linky so we can check out everyone's projects.  Then there will be a "Reveal" Linky at the end of the month.  What do you all think?  Please play, this one could be so fun and a great way to get some new ideas for the house:)

BEFORE:  My plan is to paint and change out old tired accessories.  Furniture really needs to stay, after all this is a makeover on a budget!


My Younger Self

I haven't been writing much these last few months. Life has been increasingly crazy but last night I read a post that inspired me. Lindsay from Once Upon a Mommy wrote a post called, "My Younger Self".
It really got me thinking about what I would tell my younger self if I could go back in time and tell myself all about what age and experience has taught me.

I would tell that young high school girl not to be so "by the book". I would tell her to relax and have fun and less goodie-2-shoes-like. You see I was a BIG rule follower. Never skipped class, never missed curfew, never drank or smoked while I was in High School (Although I certainly made up for it in college...). I kept my virtue very close if you catch my drift. I was a good girl and I was loyal and I always put everyones needs above my own.

I would tell myself that Photography can be a REAL job and I would have pursued it in college instead of getting a degree in something I scarcely remember or will ever use in my life.

I would tell my younger self to s l o w d o w n. I was never happy with where I was, I always thought the next step was where I wanted to be. So I never just enjoyed being in the moment because I was too busy trying to get to the next big thing.

I would also tell her that pleaseing everyone else just because you hate confrontation will never make her happy in the end.

I would tell her that she has 2 beautiful and extremely bouncey baby boys waiting for her in the future so just relax and take her time getting there.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Sunday, August 8, 2010

All That Hard Work...WASTED!

Mostly, I'm disappointed that I walked/ran all those miles and deprived myself of the foods I love and ended up even heavier then when I started. I HATE the way my body looks right now but I just haven't made any progress. My clothes don't fit anymore and I actually cringed when I thought about Fall coming and having to wear jeans...which just aren't comfortable unless I'm thin.

So I've decided not to think about being thinner but instead to concentrate on being healthier. Eating healthier foods and staying as active as possible, even if it's just a walk after dinner with the dog.

I need to learn to cook. I need new ideas for lunches to pack because honestly if I have to eat another Lean Cuisine or Turkey Sandwich on Wheat I'm going to die. It's so boring. I also HATE to pack my lunch at night because I'm worn out from work, house, and kids. I know this is something I just have to get used to but I hate doing it, which I guess is why I always end up with the frozen meals.

Tomorrow, healthy eating (breakfast included) and a walk at some point during the day.

I can do this!!!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Be Careful What You Wish For

Sometimes the stars in alignment.  I've been hoping and wishing for change and an opportunity has just presented itself.  It would require some sacrifice initially on my part and for my family.   Now of course I'm excited and terrified all at the same time.  What does the future hold.  Will this opportunity be what I've been longing for or a giant mistake?  I've made mistakes before.  What is it about Modern American society that presents us with so many choices, and it's the variety and quantity of those choices that constantly have us second guessing our decisions. 

Don't get me wrong though, I'm thrilled for the possibilities that lay ahead.  More to come...

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Change

I need a change.  A big change.  I am so tried of the same thing day in and day out I could scream. 

I'm back at work and I miss my baby boys so much.  I want to be there with Muffin because he needs me to set a good routine for him.  His appointment with the Developmental Ped is just a month away now and the waiting is killing me.  Puck needs me more now than I ever thought he would.  Something big is going on in that growing mind of his.  He is testing the limits, pushing the boundries, and trying to figure out who he is.

...and I'm missing it.

When I get home I'm so tired and I feel like I have 101 things to do.  They are tired and cranky too.  I get to spend 3 hours with them before they go to bed and sadly it's not what I would call, "Quality Time." 

Dinner feels rushed and messy.  Muffin doesn't want to eat, Puck is playing with his food.  Hubs and I can't carry on the simplest conversation.

I need to get my little busniess off the ground, it feels impossible.  Will I ever be able to stay home and take care of my boys the way they deserve?  This working-mom thing just gets harder and harder.  I never thought I wanted to be a stay at home mom.  I thought that my status at work or my income level was more important....but I just don't care about those things anymore. 

Change has to come eventually.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Take More Pictures of your KIDS!!!!

I have just returned from vacation and downloaded all of the pictures we took on our two week vacation.  We took 890 pictures.  That's 890 pictures of the fun and the mundane.  It got me thinking about taking pictures as a mom.  I take pictures of my boys almost everyday even when we are not on vacation.  This time goes so fast.  Things are hard when the kids are so young.  Life is busy, but you know what???   It will be gone in the blink of an eye and if you don't make an effort to capture it, this moment will vanish and the next will arrive.

We currently have over 16,000 family photos of everything under the sun (and lots of videos too) on our computer which we back up regularly and post to Picassa and a neighbor for safe keeping.

I cringe when I hear that friends of mine went to Disney World and didn't take a camera.  If I forgot my camera or broke it on a vacation to Disney of all places I would be buying a new one no matter the cost.  I use a simple point and shoot Canon that fits in my pocket and I take 10 photos to get 2 great ones.

Take More Pictures.  My hubs showed me tonight how to make an instant slide show on our Mac tonight with the pix from an event (if you use iPhoto you know what I mean).  It was amazing to watch.

If you own a digital camera then taking pictures is virtually FREE!  You don't have to make prints to preserve your moments and memories.  If you don't know how to download the pictures from your camera then please learn how!!!

Pick up those cameras and take a photo tonight or tomorrow of you little ones doing something completely normal like brushing their teeth or eating cereal.  You'll thank me in 10 years!  If you have a MAC set your screen saver to iPhoto slide show...you'll be amazed at the photos that flash across the screen that you haven't seen in years:)


Cheese:)