Friday, July 30, 2010

I have to start over...completely.

I guess I have officially failed. I'm at the end of my two week beach vacation and when I get home the party is over, so-to-speak. I originally started out on this weight loss journey because I was so unhappy with my physical appearance. I still am but I think that alone is not enough to motivate me to change enough to lose the weight.

I'm doing some reflection on what has worked and what hasn't...

I'll be back and I'm always reading your blogs because they are truly inspiring.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Feels Like Home

Hubs and I have had countless conversations about moving here...this place on the bay of Virginia Beach. I really want to live here. I love it here. My boys love it here.

I want it so much but Hubs has a good job which I know I should be feeling thankful for but now would be a great time to take a chance and start a new life in a new place before the boys get much older.

Three more days and then it's back to the grind. Back to my dirty house and the piles of laundry. Back to my long commute and back to work. Why does this depress me so? I love my home, I just wish it was here, laundry and all!

Here's a photo of the boys after another long day at Busch Gardens. We stayed to watch the Fireworks at closing and they were AMAZING! Muffin was immediately asleep when they ended.

Saturday, July 24, 2010


I wish kids could understand that vacation literally means, Sleeping In! I'm here to say that they absolutely don't get it and I think they even get up earlier. I brought dark curtains with me to put up during our stay just so the bedroom would be darker in the didn't work.

Yesterday Hubs took the boys on his morning run and so I got to sleep in until almost 9:15 which, let's be honest here moms, was complete and total ecstasy!

We've crammed ourselves into my dads lovely little 1 bedroom, 1 bath condo by the beach. For a family of four plus a dog AND a cat it is a little cramped but I wouldn't trade it for the world.

Yesterday my dad came and spent the day on the beach with us and I can't remember having so much fun. My dad even surprised me by getting in the water with the boys and me, something I can barely remember him doing when I was a kid.

We finished the day up with a great dinner by the bay complete with Pecan Pie and Ice Cream!

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Change Direction

I want to move to the beach. I want to leave DC where I currently live and have lived my entire life. I want a change of scenery for me and my family. I want to wipe the slate clean and start a whole new life somewhere new.

Things are never that easy though. Hubs has a great job that he doesn't want to leave. Me, I could work anywhere.

But if I could snap my fingers and make it so I would pack my bags, load the boys up in the car and follow one of those huge moving vans to a new home in a new city, somewhere near the Beach, USA.


Simply Sun & Sand

Friday, July 16, 2010

Minivan Love

So finally we are on vacay! This is our first summer with a minivan. My hubs has been wanting one for years and I have always vehemently refused to consider getting one of these. Now, I can't even imagine going back to a wagon or sedan. We have so much stuff packed I here I can't even believe it. Suitcases, beach gear, 2 bikes, 2 scooters, linens, food, toys, dog, and the cat!

I also love that the boys have so much leg room a d they love being able to see out the big windows with the built in sun shade.

I like the heated leather seats and honestly with kids leather is a must so you can just wipe spills away. That's what I told hubs...

Hoping for great beach weather. I sure hope I haven't forgotten anything important!

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Wednesday, July 14, 2010

When I wasn't looking...

Somehow my baby boy, Puck, has turned into a big boy when I wasn't looking. I don't know when
it happened. Was I doing the dishes? Was I at work? Was I distracted by my younger sons crazy antics?

Where did his chubby cheeks go? Where did his sweet face go?

All of a sudden he thinks he knows EVERYTHING. He gets grumpy and yields this attitude at me when he doesn't get his way.

Where is the boy that wants "up up"? Where us the boy who wants to snuggle with mommy?

Yesterday when I left for work he didn't even look away from the TV.

Where did my baby boy go and who is his kid standing in his place?

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Monday, July 12, 2010

36 C

My diet has gone on hiatus and with a 2 week beach vacation just around the corner I'm thinking it will just stay that way for a couple more weeks.

I was thinking today that perhaps it's not important that I'm "skinny", but just being healthy would be a good start.

When trying to find the silver lining I think that it's my new and improved boobs...I've gone from a 34A to a 36C and I'm fine with that;)

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Friday Night Leftovers

-I hate it when I am on a pool deck trying to arrange and take a Swim Team Photo of 100+ kids and all the lazy ass moms holding starbucks cups and cameras behind me are talking so loudly about everything I could be doing differently. I don't go to their work or house and tell them how to do their jobs. I feel bad for snapping at the one mom who made my blood boil, but it was 100 degrees:(

-I've noticed over the past few weeks that my sweet baby, I mean big boy Puck is turning into a little boy. The attitude and macho-ness are making me sad...

-Muffin is eating Applesause, APPLESAUCE! Glory be to GOD!

-I can't lose this 30 pounds if my life depended on it. Beer and Nachos are just so damn yummy.

-It rained here this morning for the first time in 20 something days! We all just stood on the porch watching it. I was so happy for the grass:)

Come play with Danifred. It's so fun to complain, I mean share!

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Afraid of the Scale

I feel like I'm on a roller coaster. I don't even want to think about what the scale would read if I were to stand on it this morning. I'm pretty certain I would be right back up to where I started. Which means to me that I have been depriving myself delicious food and exercising my butt off for no reason.

It's also July 4th Weekend and we are having a huge block party with food and beer. The 2 things I basically can't have but will because it's a holiday and a party and that's just the way it is.

This photo was taken on a recent date night with my HUBS. All I see when I look at this photo is my big ugly fat arm, and it ruins everything:( I hate it and want to burn the dress.

I feel like I can work my ass off for two weeks and in one or two days gain back all the weight I have worked so hard to lose.


So Frustrated:(

Friday, July 2, 2010

Never Enough

Sometimes I feel as though I'm just barely getting by. There is...

barely enough clean laundry.

barley enough food in the pantry.

barley enough organization in the house to make it presentable.

barley enough time to workout.

I want so much to be a good mom, wife, housekeeper, employee but most of the time I feel like I'm running to stay ahead of the bear that will certainly take me down at any second if I slow my pace to breath.