Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Black & White Wednesday - But today I'm loving COLOR



Please go visit The Long Road to China to play and view all the great Black and White's! This week I had to post the color version too since I just love it so much.


Monday, March 29, 2010

Always Someone Better

There will always be someone better that you.
There will always be someone who thinks they have a better way.
There will always be someone who wears better clothes or drives a better car.
There will always be someone who thinks they are a better parent.

That's why you have to believe in you and love yourself and love who you are.

Starting my own business is scary. There are the financial decisions, there's networking, websites, blogs, business cards, taxes, products, reputation...it just goes on and on...

For months I've been wondering what "my" style is. I look at every photo blog and website I can get my mouse too. Sometimes touring the images can be intimidating and sometimes I come away with renewed confidence. I just ordered some new business cards that have images on the backs. I had to go through and select those images by hand one at a time. Then, it hit me "My" style was staring me right in the face. I realized what you see is what you get. My clients and future clients will choose me because they like "my" style over another.

I feel relieved that I know what my style is. I feel confident too.

What ever you do for a living or how ever you raise your babies...someone will always think they know more then you do. Someone will always think they can do it better or in some other way. Only you know "your" style.

Run with it.

Embrace it.

Be your BEST self!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Fix-It-Friday's

I am participating in I Heart Faces "Fix-It-Friday". Here is my edit using Apples Aperture 2.



Super Saturday

Wow, I'm tired. Today seemed so long and so busy. Puck had his first T-Ball Practice of the season. I was so impressed with how much more focused and attentive he was. A big change since last season. I have to give credit to the TKD he has been taking. He was like a different kid. I was so proud. I didn't take one photo...told you I was taking the weekend off! When we all got back to the new Mini-Van we all realized our shoes were caked and covered in mud...so we took off our shoes to save our new mats...I wonder how long that will last, hahahah!

Lunch out at a very crowded Red Robin and a trip to the sporting goods store for a well deserved first pair of real cleats. I totally can't wait to see him all dressed up in his new uniform:)

Home to play outside and then an impromptu dinner invitation from some great neighbors. Oh yeah, and Coconut Cream Pie...Mmmm....pie.....

Boys to bed, empty load dishwasher, sweep, fold laundry, wine...

Yep Exhausted!

I hope everyone is having a great weekend. What did you do?

Friday, March 26, 2010

Friday Night Leftovers


I am so glad it's Friday! Play along and serve up your leftovers by visiting Sippy Cups are not for Starbucks!

and also Half Past Kissing Time's Friday Fragments



*We have crossed over to the darkside...we are now the proud owners of a mini-van. In the past I have preached how much I hate these things. Now, I gotta tell you it's like a luxury hotel on wheels complete with leather and enough cup holders to end world thirst! I mean the doors open and close by themselves. What more could a mom with her hands and arms full all the time ask for! It's da bomb! Funny, it's actually my Hubs ride! I drive a Prius so that I can ride HOV in crazy DC traffic! I can't wait to take our first beach trip this summer!

*I had a glass of wine last night for the first time in what seems like weeks. It was so delicious and went down like liquid velvet. I wonder if I'll get to polish it off later tonight!
*I wore flip flops today, even though it was freezing. I am so ready for spring!
*I am taking the weekend off from my photo business. If you want to see what I've been working on, click HERE.

Just Me, a mom blogger.

The intensity of life as been ramped up lately. Lots to do and lots going on. It's been a while since I've written a real post.

It's early and it's raining. At least it's Friday.

I started this blog as a way for me to express my joys, fears, disappointments, hopes...you know all of it. I needed a release and I have found it in blogging. I enjoy the support it brings and I look forward to reading all of your blogs.

Followers are great and I am always on the look out for another fantastic blog to read. I have learned that there are so many types of blogs, communities, giveaways, contests, etc. My blog is mostly just about me and how I get through life. I'm not trying to make money blogging (however, I am trying to make money photographing and that is a different blog!

So what's going on now...

Well have you ever wished for something and then not feel sure if you really are ready for it? Stay Tuned.

Happy Friday Everyone:)

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Pour Your Heart Out - Working Mama's Struggles

It didn't take long for me to think of a topic to write for this Meme from Shell at Things I Can't Say.



Before I begin I would like to say that please don't judge my story. If you are in the same boat with me then come along for the ride. This is my story from my perspective.

I am a working mom. I worked full-time through both pregnancies, only taking 12 weeks of Maternity Leave each time. Heading back was painful and hard and I cried the whole way there. Luckily, I have a very generous Mother-In-Law who has lovingly taken care of the boys while my husband and I go to work.

There are many days when I am torn between two worlds: work vs. home. Unless you experience it for yourself then you can never understand what it is like. Life would be easier, surely if my only responsiblity was to my home and my children, but alas it is not.

I am tired of people who don't have children passing judgement on co-workers that do have someone other then themselves to take care of. I've actually had people tell me that it was my choice to have kids and it was my choice to live an hour away from work. To these people I feel like saying, "Well it's your choice to make work your life and it's your choice to give your life only to yourself."

I know what sacrifice is. I sacrifice everything for the sake, care, and well-being of little human beings that are going to grow up and hopefully be contributing members of society. Yes, I may leave on time and not pull overtime like you. I have to go home and clean, feed, and raise my kids. You have to go home and do nothing but whatever pleases you, which is by definition, only selfishness.

Don't judge. I work just as hard as you do and even harder when I get home. If you had any courage or priorites other then yourself you would understand this. Walk in my shoes before you judge me or any other working mom or dad out there!

Monday, March 22, 2010

Coming Up for Air

Busy. I've been so busy. I had a shoot on Saturday, 3 on Sunday, and 1 today!. I have several hours of editing left in front of me.

I'm taking the evening off. I just painted my toes..."Green With Envy."

I've missed all my bloggy friends and I hope to catch up with all the goings on over the next several days.

Feet Up.

Iced Tea.

TV on.

Ahhhhh:)

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

I'm Here!

Since, Monday morning I have been sooooooooo sick.... Hubs actually had to come home from work because I was so ill. I missed Tuesday and Wednesday at work. I had strep! Just a few hours ago I started to feel better. The antibiotics finally kicking in I guess. I really hope my boys can avoid getting this from me.

I haven't been able to use a computer so I am way behind on my blog reading and writing. I hope all is well with everyone and I should be back to share the comment love with you all soon:)

Monday, March 15, 2010

My Hero


Since I can remember, I have always thought of my father as my hero. To me he was always a patient, loving, and understanding teddy bear. Which amazes me now since he was a policeman. For years he worked as an investigator for the Homicide Department in a very dangerous city. He would go to work and see the most horrible things and come home and sit at the dinner table with his 2 daughters. You've seen Law & Order and CSI, well that was him...investigating crime scenes...daily, I have to add.

He had to work a lot in those days so he missed some events here and there but I never remember being disappointed or let down. I had enough healthy fear to follow his rules so I was a good teenager. I can only recall him yelling at me once, and I deserved it. In my high school years he was able to make more time for us. He went on almost every class trip (overnights and all) with the Marching Band. He used to help us get on and off the field at competitions. He was a favorite chaperon among the kids. Everyone he meets loves him.

He's the kind of dad that supports you even when he doesn't agree with your choices.

He was there for me when I got married.

He was there for me when I had my sons, the first one to the hospital and the last one to leave.

He comes to every birthday party the boys have and makes an effort to see his grandsons all the time. The waitress at anniversary dinners for Hubs and I have surprised us on more than one occasion with a gift certificate to cover our dinner.

My parents are divorced and now I have this amazing step mom. I love them both so much. My older son no longer recognizes my mother in photos. We haven't seen her in 15 months.

I love my father and the support he gives to my whole family. I am thankful to have such an amazing and inspirational grandfather for my boys.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Sunday Snapshots - Messy!



Here is my shot for Messy. This is what icing looks like on my 3 year olds face. By the way, I am so not happy with the photos that my Point-&-Shoot takes. It's a Canon Power Shot. What do you use for pix on the go when/if you don't use a DSLR?



Thanks for playing and tell your friends!

Friday, March 12, 2010

Give Me Your Best Shot




Hosted by Cecily and Lolli




Sorry, couldn't get the button to post!

Come post your best shot of the week at Better In Bulk!

Friday Night Leftovers & Friday Fragments




I am so glad Friday is here! It's been such a busy and crazy week. Please play along with Danifred at Sippy Cups are Not for Starbucks and Half-Past Kissin' Time.

*Being a mom and sick SUCKS. I came home from work yesterday and passed out for an hour nap with my 3 years old. Thank heavan for an awsome mother-in-law who stayed with Puck so I could get some rest! We almost overslept and missed TKD, but we made it bed heads and all!

*So excited that Spring is getting closer. I want to get my camera outside and snap some fresh shots ASAP.

*I'm donating a Tutu to support Breast Cancer. It will be auctioned off on Saving Second Base. Please walk on over and check out this chicks story as she trains and raises money for the Philadelphia Susan G. Komen 3-Day for the Cure.

*I am mentally on track for some serious weight-loss now that the days are slightly longer. Nothing can stop me now!

*Business is booming, well it's picking up to say the least! You can see my latest work by clicking HERE.

*Come back and visit me on Sunday for my new photo Meme: Sunday Snapshots. This week's them is going to be "Messy"!




Won't let a Cold Keep Me Down

Yesterday I felt awful. Luckily I'm better today just a little stuffed up. That means however that i didn't get to exercise:( I stayed on track with the food though!

If you are like me, you really don't have time to make a healthy delicious meal all the time. I work full-time and have 2 young and active little guys that get most of my energey and attention. So last night I zapped this in the microwave...



It was DELICIOUS! My very picky 3 year old was even stealing my noodles...I think that says a lot for the taste. No one told me to say that, I really was pleasantly surprised by the taste. I plan on stocking up on the Lean Cusine Spa Meals ASAP!

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Weight Loss in Chaos



If any of you are on the Weight Loss roller coaster, please join me on my weight loss blog: WEIGHT LOSS IN CHAOS

Template also designed by Blogoholic ! She still has a giveaway going on I think...

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Mommy Prose

Mom. Mother. Mama.

As a woman with one of these titles you know all to well what the meaning of being a mother is. Whether you stay at home or commute to an office everyday, you love your kids and you sacrifice yourself for your little ones every single day.

You sacrifice little things...perhaps you put back that $8.00 T-Shirt at Target because you little guy or girl just HAS to HAVE this or that, maybe they need it, maybe they don't. As a mom, you would rather your kids have what they want or need over anything that you may want or need.

You sacrifice big things...perhaps a promotion at work or a career you've always dreamed about because somehow you'd rather make valentines for all 16 kids in your child's preschool class or bake a cake for his or her birthday.

We sacrifice our bodies, our minds, and our humility. I have found being a mother to be the most rewarding and the most humiliating job I've ever had. Childbirth in any fashion is beautiful and humbling. Everyone on the planet has seen your Va-J-J and manhandled your breasts. Don't even make me mention the suppositories that come after C-Sections...OMG, the things you'll agree to just so you can take your little baby home....shiver...

We rock sick babies to sleep.

We sleep on the floor next to their cribs with our arms through the bars just to comfort them without bringing them into your bed where they want to be...

We get up countless times a night for years, to check on a cry, or offer a feeding, or a comforting hand on the back. We bring ice water and we turn on nightlights and check for the monsters under the bed.

We change wet sheets in the dark and telling your little one, "It's ok, mommy will take care of it..."

We smile with pride at school concerts, when a 2 minute rendition of "He's got the whole world in his hands" can bring you to tears. You take 100 photos of your oldest while keeping your younger offspring happy in your lap or even better a stroller with endless supplies of cheerios and goldfish.

Driving through McDonalds raises you to hero status for an afternoon.

We fold the laundry, its un-ending, and no one ever says thank you.

No matter what kind of day I've had, the second I walk in the door I see 2 little boys shouting "Mama" and running to hug me. Who cares if my shirt is one size too small. Who cares if I forgot to put make-up on that day. Who cares if my boss yelled at me for no reason. Who cares that traffic sucked.

I'm a mom and I have everything I need.

Back on Track - My Back Story

It's been awhile since I've even looked at this blog...

I was so demotivated by my weight gain. It felt to me like the pounds came out of no where. In 6 months I went from a Size 6 to a Size 12. Even more strange to me was how the weight appeared in places that I had never had a problem before, like my midsection. I have a muffin top and I HATE it!

Losing the weight just so I could wear my clothes seemed impossible. I grew out of my pants, shirts, skirts, underwear, and my bra. I didn't even want to put on make up and lived in my yoga and gaucho pants as much as I could. If it wasn't for having to go to work I probably wouldn't have even put on a pair of real pants.

Last year was one of the longest and most difficult I can remember. I slipped into a depression and sought out therapy and medication to help me through a personally low time in my life. Everything helped incredibly and I'm thankful that I was able to recognize that I needed help. Sometimes as women and moms we think we have to do it all alone. Take it from me, we don't.

Unfortunately, the medicine I was taking was a contributing factor to the rapid weight gain. I'm in a better place now and have starting weaning myself off of it.

I have been watching what I eat, drinking lots of water and limiting the wine, sniff, sniff:(

I hope you'll follow me on my journey and I would love to follow yours. Doing this alone would be no fun!

Today I ate...

90 Calorie Fiber One Breakfast Bar
Coffee (probably 2 cups too many)

Udoni Asian Soup
Low Fat Yogurt

Part Skim Cheese Stick
Banana

Handful of Pistachios

Grilled Salmon (not a big fan, yuck)
Whole Grain Rice
Steamed Veggies

1-diet Pepsi, my desert.

Monday, March 8, 2010

This Muffin-top is NOT Delicious!


Ok seriously ladies, never before in my life has my midsection been an issue for me, my weight, or my figure. WTF? Out of no where since the summer I have developed a Muffin-top. You know it like a bad word, the fat that squeezes over the waistband of your jeans. Wearing a shirt that fits correctly is out of the question. I don't even want to try and look cute:(

It's just this big roll of fat...gross.

I hate it!

It's completely demotivating as far as the weight loss campaign is concerned.

Don't even get me started about my huge rack either. The girls are literally falling out of their homes.

I just want to eat worse 24-7 because I feel like it's not fair and it's just going to be too much work to get rid of these bakery goods.

Hmmm. Maybe I'll go bake some muffins this morning...

Saturday, March 6, 2010

New Photo Meme - Sunday Snapshots - Imagination

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Hi everybody. Since I love taking pictures and I know so many of you do too I wanted to start a new photo Meme. Sunday seems like a great day since I usually have a lot going on and it's tough to sit down and write a long post. You DON"T have to be a pro to play. All levels welcome so please tell your friends!



This weeks theme is imagination. Do you have a photo that you think captures "Imagination"? I hope you'll play along! Don't forget to link back to me and visit all the other entries and leave some bloggy love!

The Sound of a Waiter's Tray Crashing to the Floor


When Hubs suggested we take the boys out for Pizza on a Friday night it sounded like a great idea. We go out to eat a lot. Lately it's been more difficult since Muffin prefers to stand instead of sit and he won't eat anything. A pizza joint on a Friday night seemed like a safe bet, boy was I wrong.

It took just a little too long for the pizza to come. Muffin wouldn't eat anything so the rest of us enjoyed a slightly overly greasy pizza. When Puck said he had to go to the bathroom I took him. Well, I had to take both boys with me since Muffin won't let us go without him.

There's a line. The mens room is locked too. What the heck to people do in there anyway? Seriously!?! I can see Hubs looking at us like what's taking so long. The lady in front of me is pregnant. I look at her cute belly and ask when she is due. Turns out it's her first and as she looks at my 2 rambunchkins she said,

"It's a little girl."

It felt more like, "It's a sweet little girl that will never be running around like your crazy little boys."

Sigh...

Finally we get our turn in the potty. By the time we get back to the table I'm spent and ready to go. Puck hops back into the booth and proceeds to eat more pizza. He's not done. Hubs must have seen the look on my face as I'm standing in the aisle holding a wriggling Muffin and suggests we wait in the car. A great idea!

Now, the part you have been waiting for...

Before I can take one step toward the door I feel Muffin rear back in my arms. First I hear the sound of breaking glass. Next I feel something warm on my leg, yep spaghetti sauce. I look down and see pasta and sauce and glass everywhere. I couldn't get around the mess on the floor so I turned on my heels and walked our the door without saying a word and without looking at anyone.

I don't think I want to go out and eat anymore, at least for a while.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Friday Night Leftovers



Come taste the leftovers and join Danifred at Sippy Cups are Not for Starbucks!

*I was overly distracted by my own huge BOOBS at Yoga tonight. Everytime I was in downward dog pose all I could see was cleavage. Not something I'm used to...it was weird and hilarious!

*I found a puzzle piece that has been missing since Christmas in the bottom of the freezer:)

*Did you know there are great iPhone apps for tracking your Period? Hello technology, amazing. What did we do before the internet and smart phones???

*I have 2, yes TWO photo shoots on Monday and one on Sunday! Yeah!

*If you want to know more about my photography...you can click on my photography page at the top of my blog. I don't link from there to here but if you follow me here you are welcome to check out my photo blog for what I'm currently working on:) It's a big part of who I am and I want you to know about it!

*I wanted to thank all my regular commenters! I have really been enjoying reading your blogs too!

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

My 1st Black & White Wednesday

the long road




Please visit The Long Road to China for great photo tips!

I want a GIRL!


I just hit my mid 30's. I have 2 amazing and crazy and loving and wild little boys. They are just over two years apart. It was tough when the 2nd came, since my first wasn't talking yet. Often we felt out little newborn Muffin was in danger for his life if we left Puck alone in a room with him, so we didn't!

I have this nagging feeling that I'm not "done" yet. I'm somewhat ashamed to admit that I really want a girl. Of course I would love a another boy just as fiercely. I just love the idea of being a mom to a girl. I want to be able to bestow my "knowledge" and experience of being a woman to my daughter.

Hubs and I go back and forth on the 3rd baby issue. He wants one when don't and I want one when he feels like, never. So it goes....

...but last night while cleaning the kitchen up he says, "You really want another? I'll give you 2 shots." (Meaning 2 non-planned non-protected "events") Hmmm, well that's progress I'd say.

A 3rd baby would change everything. I would have to stop working but it would allow me to fully concentrate on my business. The boys might have to bunk-up but they would probably love that.

I've given away almost all my baby stuff except the crib, a Medela, and a crap load of little boy clothes....

Well, who knows if it will even happen but I'm glad he may be opening to the idea of it. At least I don't HAVE to say, "Yes, we are done." There is a tiny spark of hope.