Sunday, January 31, 2010

Mom's Night Out!

Last night was my 2nd Annual Night Out! This is a tradition we started last year on my birthday. My best friend and I went out for a fabulous Steak dinner at {Ray's the Steaks}. AMAZING STEAK! I had the Fillet Mignon with Blue Cheese sauce AND Blue Cheese Crumbles. Oh my delicious! Also included in our meal was a bottle of wine , Lobster Bisque and 2 deserts (Milk Chocolate Mousse and Coconut Cream Pie), yes 2 which were so sinfully delicious that I forgot to take a photo! I have the best friend in the whole world. I can't wait to make it up to her in August when her B-Day rolls around...

We were worried that we would have to cancel our fun night out due to the snow...but I hoped in the car for the 30 mile drive in the height of the snow storm...risked life and limb for my night out and it was so worth it! A little quiet happy hour with 2 best friends and the Infomercial for Wen...$29.95 later we are both awaiting our shipment of this amazingly fabulous hair care system that isn't available in stores;) We trekked out into the snow for our 8:00 reservation! When was the last time you didn't arrive at a restaurant until 8pm??? After dinner we polished off the rest of the wine and watched "The Sweetest Thing" with Christina Applegate and Cameron Diaz, super cute chick flick:)

There wasn't a pacifier or sippy cup in sight....I didn't have to get up for the entire evening to do anything for anybody, I am rejuvenated:)

Saturday, January 30, 2010

The Many Faces of Muffin

As a mom and a photographer I am obsessed with my kids faces. I take TONS of pix of their faces and the closer up the better. It doesn't take much to inspire me to start clicking are just a few I shot this morning....You may be wondering what is inspiring about a tot eating a pancake (yes on the couch while watching TV, that's another post)? Well Cade doesn't eat much. Somedays we wonder how he is sustaining seems cheerios and drinkable yogurt are keeping him alive. Lately he has been eating better, 3 of these pancakes went down the hatch so quick I couldn't stop snapping!

Week 2: Weigh In - 152.2lbs

It's a miracle! I've lost 2 pounds! Whoo Hoo! I do feel motivated now to keep up with my healthy food intake. If I could just carve out a few hours a week to really exercise I'll be rolling.

Goal for the week: 3 cardio workouts on my home treadmill. Getting up early is out. I leave the house at 6:30 for work and the treadmill would wake everyone up. That leaves the evenings or after the boys go to bed!

Friday, January 29, 2010

Friday Night Leftovers - Play with Us!

I can't believe it's Friday already again. I mean I'm super excited about that fact but every week when I sit down to write this post it seems as though time has gone by in the blink of an eye...

So here are my leftovers...I'm playing once again thanks to the lovely Danifred

I would love some of my followers to play too! Copy this cool button and play with us. Post all your random thoughts that aren't enough for one's FUN!

*When you don't indulge in wine every night of the week it tastes even better on the weekend. I hope I've lost a pound or two just in the reduced wine consumption.

*Tomorrow night I'll be spending my 2nd annual night out with my oldest and dearest friend for a belated birthday celebration...Last year we saw Adele at the 930 Club in DC, GREAT SHOW! This year we are hoping for a nice steak dinner and some girl time sans little boys running circles around us....we have started a tradition for our birthdays. January is mine, night out on the town...August is hers...weekend at my beach place! Fun & relaxation , here I come!

*I'm working everyday to get my little photography business off the ground. I'm excited still and learning new things everyday. I need more Newborns so if you know of any preggo Northern VA mommies please send them my info!

*Why is there so much junk in my purse? If I just dumped the whole thing in the garbage would I even miss anything, besides my wallet? Reciepts, Pacifiers, Boxes of Mini Raisins, trash, trash, more trash. It's so frustrating. I don't even dare drop my phone or keys in it anymore for fear I'll never be able to find them again!

*I hope Muffin is still into Toy Story by the time we get to his party (in 2 weeks) he has a cake and gifts all coming to him in the Toy Story theme! He is talking more and more everyday and so I worry a little less with each new word. Just hearing "Good Morning Mommy." (3 words together) gives me pause and makes me smile! Meeting with the Speech Therapist on the 8th...hoping for a good evaluation!

*Still waiting for more Self Portraits...I've done another 30 pounds heavier than I'd like so you all have no excuse!

New Blog & a New Design!

To motivate me to loose that 30 pounds I have a new blog dedicated to just that! I also wanted to highlight the fabulous design from Blogoholic Design! If you are looking for a fresh new look, look no further...she even has a hard to resist start up deal if you get there fast enough!

New Look! The Blog that is...not me!

My Blog has a completely unique and fabulous new look thanks to one of my favorite blogging friends! Check out her mommy blog at Once Upon a Mommy and check out her budding new Blog Design Business Blogoholic Design (love the name!)

Thanks Lindsay! It's fantastic! Next time I get bored with my blog designs I'll be coming back to see you!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

You know you're a mom when...

1. Before taking a bath you have to take the toys out of the tub.

2. Instead of having luxurious bath salts and bubble bath you have to reach for the Johnsons Baby Head to Toe Body Wash.

3. Running everyday errands has made you a public spectacle more times then you care to count.

4. You know where ALL the public bathrooms are.

5. Before you get to pour your morning coffee you have to pour sippy cups full of milk, feed the pets, turn on the TV (which takes an insane amount of button pushing, if you can find the remote), and reach for the cheerios.

Add yours!

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Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Yoga - Finally

I haven't been to a Yoga class in over a month and was feeling like I really needed to get back into the studio. I'm so glad I did. The only class I could make this week was Gentle Yoga. It was great for these reason...

1) It was gentle (calming).
2) It's a super beginner class so I was feeling like a Pro Yogi (great for the confidence factor).
3) I was really able to tune everything out and concentrate on the meditation parts of the class, which is usually my weakest area.



So it's mid week and my food consumption is under much better control. Here's what I've been eating...

Fiber One Chewy Breakfast Bars
Baby Carrots
Turkey & 2% Cheddar Wraps
Green Tea
Lean Pockets (Processed...I know)
I have drastically reduced my wine intake, sad but true.

I also managed to get outside and walk on one freakishly warm January Day. I'm hitting the Yoga Studio tonight and have big plans for the treadmill tomorrow if all works out with my boys and hubby's schedule.

Any ideas for healthy sack lunches? Snacks?

Tuesday, January 26, 2010


Have you ever wished you could hit the "reset" button? Have you ever wondered where you would be had you taken a different road? Have you ever said something you later regretted? What if you'd gone to a different school or chosen a different major? I'm sure you've heard about the "easy" button but I say "reset" would be your big money maker...

But we can't reset...this is where we are and life is what we make of it.

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Hello World

Here I am. Living life one day at a time and trying to navigate the twists and turns up ahead...

Monday, January 25, 2010

Temps in the 60's

It's a beautiful day outside...a far cry from the freezing temps I've become accustomed to. I picked the boys up from school and me came home and went for a walk. Blake rode his bike and I pushed Cade in the jogger. I didn't have it in me to run today so I walked as fast as I could trying to keep up with Blake. It felt so comforting to breath the fresh air and actually feel the sun on my skin. Sometimes the simplest things can bring such joy...Cade pointing out each airplane and "Yucky" mud puddle along the way...Blake flying through DEEP puddles on his bike without a care in the world if his pants were getting muddy....

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Today is my Birthday

As I get older birthdays are less and less exciting. I think my best birthday ever was a surprise Sweet 16 my parents threw me....of coarse that was a long, long, long time ago...

As birthdays go this was a great one:) I got to sleep in (which all moms know is AWESOME!!!) I woke up to a plate of pancakes with a whipped cream smiling face a top of a cute little table I've had my eye on for 6+ months and drawings from my boys, a fresh fruit smoothie and coffee...

Here is the funny part. I sit down at the table feeling elated about turning 34 in such a way with my sons and husband clearly enjoying the celebration as much as me. I'm sipping hot creamy coffee and smiling, my husband is snapping photos and I don't even care that I haven't looked in a mirror yet and that I'm still in my PJ', smile, smile...

Blake says, "Why do you have spots all over your face mommy?"

I look at my husband who looks mortified and says, "That's not nice Blake" and looks at me and politely reveals to me that overnight I have developed two choice ZITS! Ahhh, don't you just love it? As if I wasn't feeling old and hideous enough as it was. I have to laugh however...if only we'd had that on video we could have won, America's Funniest Home Videos!

A wonderful lunch with my dad & step mom and a movie with the hubs, Avatar in 3D!


2 bottles of wine
wine glasses
wine glass charms
wine bottle stoppers

I guess they know me pretty well:) I'm enjoying a birthday glass of Merlot right now and some quiet time just for me...

Tutu Giveaway


I hope I win! This would be great for Newborn photos!

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Decisions, Decisions

Green, Green, or Green?

Just some pix of our afternoon home improvement adventures:)

Week 1: Weigh In - 154.8lbs

In July I weighed 129lbs. The weight had literally been falling off. It was like nothing I had ever experienced brought on by stress I suppose. Since then the weight has piled back on, I guess because I starting eating on a regular basis. So now it's time to get serious about losing this weight and doing so in a healthy way this time.

My story: Prior to pregnancy weight was never really an issue for me. I was never "skinny" but I'd say I was in the range for my height etc. After a miscarriage and another pregnancy coupled with quitting smoking the weight gain was like an unstoppable freight train. The day before my first born son was born I weighed 198lbs!

Today I am 154.8lbs. I realize there are many woman you would love to be that weight. Weight is all about how you feel about yourself and so for me this is just not where I want to be.

My Goal: By June 23rd I hope to have made my goal of 125lbs.

The Problem(s):

*I work full-time.
*I have 2 kids.
*I have a husband.
*I just started my own business.
*Sleep is necessary.
*Not enough hours in the day.
*Can't afford a Gym membership at the moment, not that I have to time to actually leave the house.

Here goes nothing.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Friday Night Leftovers

I am participating in Friday Night Leftovers with the lovely and talented Danifred, won't you play with us?

*I love my black gaucho pants. I wish I could wear them to work.

*Can't shake this feeling of exhaustion, off to bed early tonight.

*I need to clean out my purse. The number of reciepts, toys, and random items have reached serious ridiculousness.

* I just painted my nails for the first time in months! Clear polish is so exciting but at least I did it.

*Chocolate Ice Cream is calling my name...

I'm on MomTog!

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Thursday, January 21, 2010

My Muffin

Wow. I can't believe my Muffin will be 3 in a matter of weeks. He is my angel, even though he still bites me from time to time. Maybe it's the hair that gives him the angelic look. I love this photo of him watching his current favorite movie, Toy Story.

We'll be celebrating his birthday at the beach this year, my favorite place. We'll be launching his Paci's to the moon from the beach as is customary for the 3rd birthday in our household. Check out Puck's 2007 launch...

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Things I Love

Turning things to a positive light, I got to thinking about all the things that I love. I was watching my youngest son play with Toy Story Characters tonight and it made me smile.

*I love that my sons are so similar and so different at the same time.
*I love that when I come home from work they scream "Mommy!"
*I love spending time taking pictures and learning more about my camera.
*I love snuggling with Blake at bedtime.
*I love rocking Cade at night and singing him lullabies.
*I love holding a cup of steaming hot coffee.
*I love hot baths.
*I love Dove soap.
*I love the the feeling of crawling in to bed at night and laying my head down on a cool pillow.
*I love the 7 minutes of snooze every morning.
*I love Diet Coke.
*I love cotton candy flavored ice cream.
*I love anything French.
*I love a weekend nap.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


Blue. I have been feeling so blue and today was particularly so. I see my "sister" has become Facebook "friends" with one of our cousins, whom I might add she probably hasn't seen or spoken to in 15 years. If you follow my blog you will know that she won't accept my friend request. Nor has she answered or responded to my repeated calls and e-mails and requests for a response. I would appreciate it more if she would just tell me to "Go to hell". I am so tired of being ignored by those that are supposed to love me. My own mother won't even go out of her way to talk to me. SILENCE IS CRUEL. The silence crushes me and it takes a little piece of my spirit away with each passing silent day.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

I Love Coffee

Coffee. I love coffee. Coffee is comforting. Coffee welcomes the day and helps me get through a long afternoon. It's a love affair that began during my early lonely days in college, a reason to walk across campus to the Coffee Shop for some steaming, delicious new beans. If Starbucks was around in those days I didn't know about it yet. Starbucks makes coffee available just about anywhere, anytime. I'm not a coffee snob though and adore coffee from the gas station just as much. McDonald's has the best cups, keeping my brew steaming hot through a 3 hour shoot. 2 Cups is my minimum but four is not unheard of...

I'm off to pour another cup...2 Splenda's & Creamer please...

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Old Dreams, New Dreams

I often dream about people and events from my past. Sometimes the dreams are so happy and so joyous I don't want to wake up and other times the dreams are more like nightmares. My dreams are just one of the many things in my life that I am not in control of. I'm getting ready to go to bed and I'm thinking that no dreams would be better than some. No dreams and a nice quiet peaceful sleep. Sine July I've noticed bags forming under my eyes and I think it's because of unsettling dreams. I think I'm sleeping but even while I sleep my worries and concerns creep in and interrupt sleep...

I also think I trust too much and give people the benefit of the doubt too much. I take to heart deeply what they say and what they don't say...

For you that don't know me...this is what I am...

Trustworthy, honest, vulnerable, passionate, naive, confident, strong, weak, honest, loving, brave, scared, creative, and serious...

When I get nervous my hands shake and I'm only smiling for real half the time. Love has found me only once and maybe I got it all wrong anyway...

My New Dreams: I hope to raise my sons to respect woman and themselves. I hope they grow into strong confident men. I hope they know that their mom loves them more than anyone else ever could...

Friday, January 15, 2010

Friday Night Leftovers

I am participating in Friday Night Leftovers. Play with us by visiting Sippy Cups are Not for Starbucks!

-I'm so glad it's Friday. I have few reasons to leave the house, wanting to spend time here with my boys. I don't think I'm apreciated much at work anymore...who knew I'd be over the hill in my mid 30's.

-I have a photo shoot tomorrow, a Family Session, I'm very excited about that.

-I haven't lost any weight, suck.

-I am trying to accept that there are some people that may never speak to me again, and that really sucks.

-I got my car washed today, don't you just love a clean car?

-No one has posted a self-portrait...come on ladies, do it!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

My Life as Art

I've never considered myself to be artistic. Lately though I see art everywhere I go. Everything I see has an emotion all it's own. I'm not sure exactly what the reason is, but over this past year, the most difficult year I can remember, I'm not the same person I was before. Maybe that's why I have had this renewed love of photography. After a decade of shooting high volume portraits, photography became so mundane, it became just work. Now I'm seeing things differently. I pulled my car over last week to take this photo I finally know what I'm supposed to be when I grow up...I've come full circle.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Breaking the Rules...

Boy did I have a day. I don't even want to go into the specifics but I'm glad the day in nearing it's end. No one by the way has met my challenge of the self portrait and I'm waiting ever so patiently;)

I broke my rules. I'm having some wine tonight. I felt like my emotions were attacking me. I put my babies to bed and poured a glass of my favorite affordable red wine, I don't drink any white, and climbed into a hot bath tub. I played my favorite Pandora station and sipped the red liquid from my glass and closed my eyes and tried to move myself forward through time.

The one bright spot in my day was a friend reminding me that I had been her shoulder to cry on, she needed me and I was there for her. So that made up for the silent treatment I've been receiving and for my boss insulting me.

It was a crappy day.

I'm in love with my boys and I'm in love with my camera. My camera is the key to my future. Taking pictures could help me spend more time with my sons. I'm not around enough. I'm not in love with myself but I'm trying to like myself.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Sans Words

Everyone knows that words can hurt. It can be the tone of the words, the volume, the words themselves, the emotion behind them, the timing of such words given a particular situation, maybe even who uses the words. What's worse, for me than harsh words, is the lack of words.

There is more than one person in my life that has simply chosen words. No words to me equals no feelings, no remorse, no concern for those they have shut out. To not speak means to not least that's all I can afford to believe, otherwise wouldn't they have something to say to me? Silence doesn't offer either side a chance to apologize for past wrongs or misunderstandings, silence is lonely, silence is cold, and silence in cruel.

Why do people choose silence? Is it always their intent to hurt or is it that they themselves are hurting? I can only initiate communication from my end for so long. It's exhausting and draining and every time my efforts go ignored I just end up feeling more hurt. When do you know it's o.k. to give up, when do you know you've said all you can say? When do you move on?

Self-Portrait Challenge..but why?

After the birth of my 2nd son I realized I appeared in something like less than 10 photos in 2 years, and of those 10 I looked HORRIBLE! I looked as haggard as I felt for sure but I didn't want my sons to grow up thinking that's what I really looked like. Inside I felt like the same 17 year old I always see when I look in the mirror (as long as I don't look too close;).

I started fixing my hair and wearing make-up on a consistent basis, bought some clothes that didn't look like they were made for the lactating cow I felt like and I started asking people to take pictures with me and my boys.

I'm a photographer by profession. Everyday I come into contact with woman who complain about having to have their portrait taken. Honestly, most of the time they look great. It doesn't matter how old they are or how much they weight, none of them like it. I can see how uncomfortable just sitting in front of the camera makes them! It's crazy....

When I was in high school I thought I was ugly. I hated being in photos too. I always thought I was too fat. Looking back at those photos now I realize how RIDICULOUS that was because I looked fantastic (at least compared to me now) which ladies in kind of the point. No matter what you think you look like now, when reach your 50's & 60's you are going to think you looked pretty fantastic when you were in your 20's, 30's, & 40's.

The challenge....

TAKE YOUR SELF-PORTRAIT. You do NOT have to be a pro here ladies. This is just for fun! Wear a hat or sunglasses or whatever makes you feel better. It can be a close up or profile or full body, whatever! I am posting mine here. You may have to take 50 shots before you get one you want. Don't have a tripod? Just hold the camera at arms length, that's what I did. Setting in on a shelf and setting the self-timer works too. Avoid using the flash if you can so position yourself near a window or go outside!

Post Your "Self-Portrait Challenge" on your blog and then comment here with your permalink. Do it for yourself!

I Heart Faces: Best Face Week

It's Birthday Week at I Heart Faces! Check out the other fantastic Faces!

Friday, January 8, 2010

Quiet Friday Night, with Music...

My week has come to end. It's quiet here in my house and I am alone in my kitchen with my computer and Pandora. My babies are sleeping and my husband is otherwise occupied with an XBox...

I love music. In my life I have taken voice lessons, piano lessons...I played the flute, the piccolo, and my favorite, the Oboe. I wasn't exceptional by any means, mediocre at best. Never a soloist, just part of the whole....but that was always o.k. with me. Very few people have ever heard me sing. It's one of those things that I keep to myself. By chance in college I had to sing during rush for my sorority. I had to sing, accapella, in front of at least 150 woman, 7 times in one night. During rehearsal I remember people stopping and starring and listening...they were surprised...I could sing! The only time I sing now is when I'm singing lullabies to my children. They seem to enjoy it, especially my 2 year old, he asks..."Rock-a-bye?"...and I comply.

I listen to music while I commute. Music touches me, it reaches into me, it touches my heart, it moves me...

Wednesday, January 6, 2010


My One Little Word for 2010 is health. It's going good so far, eating healthy, alcohol has taken a hiatus, pushing my business projects forward, exercising more. It's a lot to think about all in one day. If I could tally all the thoughts that pass through my brain in a given day I think you could link the words from the east coast to the west coast. It's exhausting sometimes.
My spirit is tired. Yeah, that's right, my spirit. I'll try to explain. It's as if I am the same person I always was but what's on the inside is less than shiny, slightly banged up, maybe a dent here or there...I'm the same woman, just changed somehow for reasons far beyond my control. Is that experience or age or something else? I'm not sure.
I have a lot to be excited about, I have a lot to be thankful for. I have made goals for myself that I believe are attainable and will bring peace and happiness to me and my boys. There you have it I am going through an emotional, spiritual, and physical detox.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Magic Mommy Moment

I spent the last 2 weeks at home with my boys, an unusual treat since I work full-time and have throughout both pregnancies and since they were born. I was lucky enough to have 12 weeks maternity leave with both my boys. Returning to work after my first born was particularly difficult. I remember crying all the way to work and most of the day in my office. It got easier over time and there are even some mornings when I'm down right thankful that I get to (I mean have to) leave the toys scattered about, the breakfast dishes in the sink, the dirty diapers, the noise OMG the noise...and hop in my car with a hot cup of Joe and go to GASP, work! It's quiet in the car and I get to listen to whatever I want on the radio as loudly as I want. I don't have to listen to Spongebob or Thomas DVD's playing in the backseat, what a treat!

The boys and I had so much fun on my break from work. I got so much cuddle time with Cade and Blake and I actually played games together! Everyone was ready to get back to the routine of work and school but I missed them today more then ever. The one plus about being gone all day is the excitement they show you when you return. The smiles and exclamations of "Mommy!" when I walk through the door make all the stresses of the day fade away.

My first order of business as a mommy today was sitting with a post-nap Cade while he devoured a cookie...I didn't even mind the crumbs in my lap.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Holiday Wrap Up

Well the end has arrived. The boys go back to school tomorrow and hubs goes back to work. I actually have an extra day since Monday's are my days off, lucky me! I'll be spending the day putting the rest of the decorations away until next year and breathing some new year life back into my house. This evening after we took down the tree I rearranged the entire living room, just because I'm tired of the way it looks.

Taking down the tree became quite a big 2 year old was distraught over the un-decorating process and was beside himself once the tree was tossed outside. He cried for an hour straight and kept trying put the ornaments back on and screaming, "I want it, I want it!" Who knew a 2 year old could develop such a close connection to a Christmas Tree???

My plans for health are off to a good start...2 miles on the treadmill yesterday and 3 miles today. I'm pretty pleased with myself and have to give a big thank you to Miley Cyrus' "Party in the USA"!

The one last pleasure I am allowing myself is a couple of Margarita's. After tonight I'm holding off on alcohol until my birthday which is at the end of the month. I want to make sure I'm putting the best stuff I can into this body so I can get it in shape the right way. Cheers!

Friday, January 1, 2010

My One Little Word: Health

Browsing through blogs earlier today I stumbled upon a great place...Ali Edwards: Capture + Create + Document + Celebrate. Please visit this blog because it is the reason for my post, which is an idea that came directly from there. Specifically My One Little Word. This blog belongs to Ali Edwards and I plan to dive into some of her archives the first chance I get. The idea is basic and complex and simple and thought provocing all at the same time. I've already posted about my New Years Resolutions but when I read this, a twist on the traditional resolution, I didn't even need to think about my OWN One Little Word: HEALTH. 2009 was one of the unhappiest years I can remember. It was a stressful time, a time of confusion of who I am, where I was going, and so much more. I was deeply depressed and I couldn't eat and by July I had lost more weight than I even know and ended up at 128lbs. I'm proud to say I did seek help...I know when I am no longer in control. Since then I have gained back all the weight I lost, I've learned that it's ok to ask for help, I was enjoying being so thin for the first time since college...but oh well;)

Health. My one word for 2010 is Health. I am working towards a healthy body, a healthy mind, a healthy heart, a healthy outlook, a healthy home, a healthy attitude, and building a healthy business. Everyday I will be thinking about the word HEALTH and how I can use it to change everything about my life that isn't so well...healthy.

I challenge you to do the same read Ali Edwards Post and choose your "One Little Word."

Happy New Year

Happy New Year Rant

My night took a strange twist. It's still a happy new year but I feel like I lost something that was really important tonight. I think I lost a friend because I was defending another friend. If any of you read then maybe you will know what I mean. I am a loyal and understanding person. I believe that everyone does the best with what they have and only a mother can understand her own situation and only a mother can understand their own child. No one is perfect, no mother, no child...all children are innocent and are the result of the situation that their parents put them in. I have no tolerance for people who inherently believe a child is bad or one is perfect and if you think you are perfect or your children are better than other children then I have no time for you. I have a big heart and I feel for ALL moms, working or SAHM, girls, name it. Just because God has graced you with children that listen more than others or children that fit your mold of perfect does not mean that you are a perfect parent or that your children are any better than mine or my neighbors or any of the 100's of children I come into contact with each year. All moms should think before they pass judgement on other moms, aren't we supposed to be on the same team? Mom's should support each other not talk behind each others backs about what they aren't or should be doing better. All the moms I know are doing the best they can with what they have and shame on anyone that thinks the mom down the road doesn't have the best intentions for her children as you do for yours. Every child deserves the benefit of the doubt, ALL children are innocent, children are children and that is all that needs to be said.