It's been almost 2 years since I have spoken to my mother.
How does a mother not want to be near her child, even an adult one? Are we as humans really so prideful and selfish that we can't see past our own issues. She has 2 grandsons who can't even name her in a photo. "Who's that?" Puck said the last time I showed him her picture. When I told him that was his other grandmother he said, "Did she die?"
There was a falling out after my wedding almost 10 years ago and nothing was ever the same. I'm sorry but I cant tell the story now, I've repeated it so many times and can't bare to do it again right now. Also involved is my younger and incredibly selfish sister. They seem to get along fine, go figure.
My sister was at Thanksgiving last year and managed to completely ignore her 2 nephews, one of which she had never met since he was born over 3 years ago at the time.
I think that is absolutely sick.
They would love her so much if she would just acknowledge them. I find myself even making excuses for my mom knowing what a difficult life she has had, but my sister had the same great upbringing by 2 loving parents as I did and she has no excuse except to be a bitch.
I've tried too many times and apologized time and time again for things I didn't even do just to appease these woman. I'm not doing it anymore.
What is wrong with people that they think just cutting someone off is acceptable for any reason, ever? Only selfish cowards do that.
How about what hurts my feelings? I count too dammit and besides I don't have time to deal with that level of bullshit, I'm busy raising 2 little human beings!!!
Thank you for reading my vent.
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