Saturday, May 1, 2010

Mirror, Mirror on the Wall...

Lately the reflection looking back at me might as well be a stranger.

I look fat and old and tired. My skin is in terrible condition and my hair is a frizzy, greasy mess. I'm so unhappy with my current weight and feel like the whole world is noticing how ugly I am. My clothes don't fit right either....it just sucks. It all sucks.

I hate that I can't wear any of my cute summer clothes from last year. I hate that it looks like I've apparently given up. I hate that wearing jeans is no longer comfortable because they squeeze me in all the wrong places. I've even stopped wearing make-up...never a good sign.

I hate that all my self confidence has been covered up by an extra 30+ pounds...

14 comments:

Beth said...

Oh Sweetie! I am so with you! Only with a (bunch more) few extra pounds! Chin up, girly! You CAN do this!

Miss. Candy said...

Hang in there, I know how you feel! I can't wait to strip my jeans off and put on some "comfy" clothes! I hope that things start to look up for you!

I'm just the MOM said...

aww honey! jeans are the devil. lol they're supposed to be comfy clothes...BLAH.

Jenny said...

Stay positive! You can do it...

Danifred said...

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry. I hope things start turning around for you. Sending much love!

JillAileenJones said...

It does stink and the bad thing is that it is way harder to take off than put on! I'll be routing for you-I am doing the same thing I want to lose between 25-30 pounds. I just hate it-never had to worry about it until after having four babies and two miscarriages and now I struggle with everything I put in my mouth and I really like food. Not a good combo! lol
Keep up the good work-I will cheer you on on this end-and you can me on yours.
Hope today is a happy day!
Jill

Tezzie said...

Oh, I'm so sorry that you're feeling down. Maybe it helps to know that there's someone on the other side of the world feeling exactly the same way (but, um...I've already given up :P). Keep trying, my friend...it'll feel better, soon, I'm sure of it!

Lindsey said...

I am so sorry you are feeling down. I totally understand bc I have been struggling with the same feelings since my son was born. I have tried to lose the weight but I would only lose like 2lbs and then I would give up. I just feel frumpy all the time, even if I am dressed up. I dread buying new clothes bc it so depresses me.

For the Love of Naps - Sarah said...

I hear ya. I spent two days, free of children, shopping for jeans...I tried on over a 100 and none of them did it for me. I am feeling JUST. LIKE. YOU.

I always said I never wanted to be one of those mom's that got submitted for a mom makeover on Oprah...and I am nearing that point. Ugh.

New week! New goals! Let's go girl!

Fishsticks and Fireflies said...

Oh, Brandi! I am so sorry that you feel this way, and admit that it wasn't that long ago that I felt the exact same way! You have a lot on your plate, and I admire the way that you juggle it all. Keep trying and take baby steps - this is only a brief moment in time, and it too will pass.

Rebecca said...

Snap out of it chicka!!! Go for a walk...get some new clothes...try an at-home facial...take a bath. Do something to make YOU feel good!

It's so hard, isn't it? Everything changes and you have no control, but to accept it. Stacey and Clinton always say "dress your best for the body you have... not the body you want"...that is my motto too.

Hang in there...you're not the only one looking at a stranger! Just make it someone you'd like to be friends with!

Stepping On Cheerios said...

You ladies are the best! Thank you so much for all of the kind words. I'm feeling better today:)

Catherine Anne said...

I too am feeling this way, but I have to say I feel better working on getting back to me.LOVE your blog. BEAUTIFUL FAMILY

tena said...

I'm right there with you, Brandi. I've lost my way but I don't want to give up. Like you said...let's start today!! Did you get some inspiration at the bookstore? Please share :)