I yell too much. I know it. Some days I'm so frustrated because it feels like I am powerless to control the antics of Muffin and Puck. What's worse it's that they seem to feed off each other. Each escalating whatever situation is disrupting the day.
Why is it my boys that seem deaf to my warnings and words? Why is it always my boys that are running and jumping when others just sit there like little bumps on logs? Why whenever I'm out in public with both boys I feel like the eyes of society are looking at me and shaking their collective head.
I'm a good mom. I try to be. I try to teach them values. I try to get them to follow the rules. Some of the defiance has to be personality right? It couldn't be entirely my fault could it?
I feel like moms with what I view to be "easy" children look down on me like I'm not doing it as good as they are. When in truth I know they couldn't last one day in my shoes.
I love my boys. I wish that they would just mind me better. I know they don't know it but it hurts my feelings when they don't listen or when they talk back. It feels some days like they are walking all over me. It's exhausting. I'm trying to be tougher, without the yelling because I don't want to be known as "that mom".
Sometimes the pressure I feel from other moms for my boys to behave or act a certain way is just too much. I wish everyone could see how sweet and wonderful they really are when it's just me and my boys...