Wednesday, March 3, 2010
I want a GIRL!
I just hit my mid 30's. I have 2 amazing and crazy and loving and wild little boys. They are just over two years apart. It was tough when the 2nd came, since my first wasn't talking yet. Often we felt out little newborn Muffin was in danger for his life if we left Puck alone in a room with him, so we didn't!
I have this nagging feeling that I'm not "done" yet. I'm somewhat ashamed to admit that I really want a girl. Of course I would love a another boy just as fiercely. I just love the idea of being a mom to a girl. I want to be able to bestow my "knowledge" and experience of being a woman to my daughter.
Hubs and I go back and forth on the 3rd baby issue. He wants one when don't and I want one when he feels like, never. So it goes....
...but last night while cleaning the kitchen up he says, "You really want another? I'll give you 2 shots." (Meaning 2 non-planned non-protected "events") Hmmm, well that's progress I'd say.
A 3rd baby would change everything. I would have to stop working but it would allow me to fully concentrate on my business. The boys might have to bunk-up but they would probably love that.
I've given away almost all my baby stuff except the crib, a Medela, and a crap load of little boy clothes....
Well, who knows if it will even happen but I'm glad he may be opening to the idea of it. At least I don't HAVE to say, "Yes, we are done." There is a tiny spark of hope.